Buckle Down And Work

Hello people!

Yes it's been a while since I last posted something on here...and happy belated new year!...I think...Anyway, I've been busy. That's why I haven't posted something on here for a while. First I went to Belgium for Christmas (which was awesome by the way, if not cold), my birthday had come around, and my sister, cousin, aunt and I went on a spa day and...well...I couldn't have been more relaxed, I started semester 2 of my second year, at uni, and well...I've been playing...a lot lately.

Don't judge me, I am a "gamer girl" so what can you do?? So here's the 411. I'm going to be working on my novel again, and this time I will finish it, before the year is up, it will be up in Summer, I can promise you that, and hopefully, if all goes according to plan, my friends and I will be starting up a YouTube channel, for all our film ideas...so yes we're going to be YouTubers!!

Right now, I'm actually attempting to finish this story, so I can get back on track with uni work, and yes, I am doing my work! I've already done the "homework" for one of my modules, I've done the reading for another, and all I have left is the rework of my CV for the last one. I am on a roll this year! No more depression about not being in a relationship, or over-stressing myself because of university, and no more "I wish"'s this year I am buckling down and getting work done. So if you don't hear from me it's because I'm going full out professional-work-mode!

So now, here's a new tidbit for the story, because you're all probably wondering what it it's about (mind you, it's a rough summary, I've yet to make up a proper one for it):

To have your world ripped away from you, because you're old enough is hard enough, but to venture in one that may kill you is another. A month after her 21st birthday, Tera is thrown into a world of magic, talking creatures, and cursed kings. Little does she know her hidden past is bound to this new world, and becoming the hostage of a cursed kingdom is just one part of it. Not to mention, being approached by the Great Seven, is no easy task either. The tests she is given will determine whether or not she is ready to fulfil her destiny.

Ok...so crappy summary but you get the gist. I'll explain more, when the time is right. For now, please don't hate! ><

Next order of business...my reviews. For those of you who don't know what I'm talking about, here's a link:

Feather's Reviews

Basically, if you don't know already, I'm doing a Film Production degree and because of that, I've deigned it necessary that I start reviewing any films, TV shows, and whatever. This is because I've realised, I'd rather be doing something in writing, whether it actually is writing a novel, a screenplay, review, or simply filling out forms for production schedules and meetings. I know that being at a desk, looking at a computer screen nearly 24/7 is the ideal job for me...after all I'm already doing that for work, I'm writing posts/pages for a blog about dyslexia, which you can check out here:

The Codpast

Yeah...you'll find my stuff under "Blog" it's there somewhere, just look at the small print saying "Curation by Vanessa Rocha...", that's me, in all my artistic glory... Ok so maybe it's not artistic, more...sarcastic, comical and well...pretty much something like this, but at least it's a start, and hey, it's not that bad, at least I'm raising awareness for dyslexics, which, I can assure you, is a very hard thing to research on. Trust me, there's a lot of things to find on the internet, but finding out who's dyslexic and who's not is very hard to do.

Anyway, back to the reviews...yeah...so...I was going to write a review for the film version of Into the Woods (Rob Marshall, 2014), but it was quite forgettable. I couldn't remember half the things that were in the film, the instant I left the cinema. Sorry Rob Marshall, but it just didn't stand out for me, not like Andrew Lloyd Webber's The Phantom of the Opera (2004) or Cameron Mackintosh's Les Miserable (2012). I know they're big hits, even in the West End and Broadway, and yes, they're the main ones everyone looks to for inspiration, but so help me, they are! I've got to get that warm fuzzy feeling inside, when I watch a musical, I want the songs to be remember-able and then I'll fall in love with it, and write that all important review, but in your case, I didn't. You're going to have to do something better than that, if you want to be a contender like The Phantom of the Opera, or Les Miserable, or even Wicked (Stephen Schwartz, 2003).

Anyway, that's it for now. Stay beautiful, and remember no stress, no depression and no laziness (yes I'll be starting my workout again). Be good, God Bless. ^^

All Work And No Play

Well...it looks like self-deprecation is the thing that pulls people in...since I've noticed my post I Am A Horrible Person seems to be getting the most views...and from America no less...yes I stalk my own blog, so be it!

The truth is, I have a lot of free time to do whatever, because of:

1. Procrastination
2. Lack of friends
3. Lack of anything I find interesting

Ok so the last one can be attributed to my own personal tastes, but what can I say? I don't have a piano in my home to keep me occupied. Yes I'm a closet pianist, and no I don't take requests because I don't know very many pieces.

It's as I said before, I'm living a half-life, because there's really nothing interesting anymore, and anything interesting usually involves alcohol or some sort of wild shindig that I don't really fancy. I mean come on! Is there nothing left for an introvert, like me, to do, without going out and partying as a drunk?

The truth is, I just sleep, once I get enough alcohol in me, I don't dance, I don't speak, I just sit there, like I'm stoned. It's no fun at all!

Oh and the title? Yeah, that was just something I thought fit, because I'm writing this on a day where I'm supposed to be at work, but because of travel disruptions (as always, when you're in London) I can't go, so I'm stuck at home, trying to piece together my assignment and waiting for a response from my employer about what I was supposed to do today.

So now I'm sitting here, contemplating whether or not I should have a game on League of Legends first, or work on my assignment...and as I got up to get my robe, because it is too damn cold even with the heating on, I decide, I'll do a little more of my assignment, and then I'll play a game...

You see! That's how sad my life is. I know you'll all probably say, "Get up and go somewhere, a park, a club, shopping, something, instead of sitting here and moping about and complaining!" but my response to you is..."WHERE THE HELL AM I GOING TO GO!!! I live in the middle of nowhere! Yes I may be in the city, but it is a far cry from city life! I live right next to Heathrow, which is where all the action is! Not to mention all that action is beyond security, I can't get past without a boarding card and passport! How the hell am I supposed to have fun there! Also, if I want to get anywhere, I'm going to have to commute! So what is the point!"

Yes that would be my argument, because I pretty much live in the countryside. While it may not be farm-land or the rural areas, it's a suburb where there are no clubs, no night life, and for someone like me, in a society where drinking is an everyday thing, or being loud is a social thing, I don't fit in at all!

Ok, I know this is slowly becoming a rant, but there's very little I can do about that because my 'dark side' has been unleashed and it's attacking me, and that's exactly what this post is doing for me. I don't know how, but it is.

Oh and as a side note...if any of you, who know me, and came from my primary school...GREAT JOB! As I said in a tweet a few weeks ago, you've successfully made a train-wreck of me, all the bad memories and self-loathing from all those years ago, have come to surface, and won't go away...So give yourselves a pat on the back, because yes you've succeeded in making a mess of me, because all the times I'll be crying over pretty much any little thing, I'll be thinking of you, and how you teased me. All the times I'll be angry at myself, I'll be remembering all the secrets you told each other about me. All the times I'll be ashamed of myself and wish I were dead, I'll be reminiscing on the times you backstabbed me because I was that gullible. Yes, gullible.

So the next time you see me and I'm putting on that mask of a smile, know that there is a broken person underneath and it was all because of you. Well done, you should all be given prizes and awards, but unfortunately I don't have any, so you're going to have to make them or buy them yourselves.

It's funny how life can screw you over like that. After seven years together (we were aged 3 - 11 at the time) you'd think they would know to stop harassing me and understand that I'm a sensitive person, not just physically but mentally and emotionally too. Also, it's thanks to them that any source of interest, for me is in books and fantasy novels and, yes, fan-fictions too. That's why I have quite a wide ranged vocabulary. Now I can write all the things that they did to me, but without implicating them.

Oh now that I think about it, it's funny I really should blame them, name and shame them, but because of who I am, and what my beliefs are I won't, because I'd be sinking to their level. The only reprieve I will probably have is that they would feel ashamed of making this mess, of making a monster out of me and they can never fix it because they won't ever see me again. They probably don't even know I have this blog and don't even know that this post is about them. Sure they may stumble across it one day, when they remember me, but I don't think they will. There is probably one in a billion chances that they would find it.

So for now, I will enjoy what freedom I have here on the internet, because they're probably never going to find this. They're probably too busy to even care, and I am so glad for that. I can say "SCREW YOU!" as much as I want and there is nothing they can do about it!

Gaming and Work Hiatus

Yes as the title says I will be taking some time off, perhaps a month or two, because lately I have not been feeling well. As you can tell from Ereimul Reviews (I might actually change the title) I have not written a review for the newest episodes for The Big Bang Theory, Doctor Who or even Once Upon A Time. The truth is, I am going through a personal crisis right now, and I don't think I can handle work alongside this crisis.

I know you all may want to know what this crisis is, but I don't think I will tell, nor will I feel obliged to tell you all. Don't worry though, I have help at hand, so no one need worry. For now, please be patient with me. I will eventually get back up on my feet.

As for the updates, I'm currently working on chapter 23 of this story, and it will annoy you all, I understand that...and when you initially read it, I know you'll all want to throw your laptops or computers or tables at the wall, but I promise you it's not a "she woke up and it was all a dream" situation, read on and it will all make sense (trust me her adventures are not a dream). The idea was taken from Of Dreams and Broken Things (the fan fiction for Labyrinth) and for those of you who have read it, you'll understand what I mean.

Now for my gaming hiatus. Yes I will be taking time off League of Legends partly because my alert pings have not been working well, and I might have to uninstall the game in order to correct the problem, but I assure you after my hiatus is over, I will be back on the game as soon as possible. Speaking of League of Legends, did anyone see the finals? I knew Samsung White was going to win! It was so obvious, Star Horn Royal Club had no chance against them...Have you seen the stats? Anyway, I'm glad Samsung White won, in their own country, I guess it's a nation thing...but hopefully over the next few years, more "Western" teams can feature in these games, I know how great they can be, and I know how tough "Asian" teams are, one day there will be equality, I just know it!

Anyway, that's it for now, so sing a song, read a book or whatever...and as always, do with this post what you want, except copy it because it's my stuff!! ^^

Restful Revision and Work

Well hello everyone. I've actually survived work! Yesterday was my first day. As promised I went at the usual 9:30 AM, and finished around 5:00 PM. When I started I didn't know what to expect, but having experienced it, I think I'll be at this company for a while. It's rather interesting and I am quite intrigued by the work we do. I can't say much yet, because I'm still starting out, but I am working on promoting awareness for Dyslexia.

I don't quite know much about it yet, but hopefully, over the next few weeks I'll be able to learn a lot more. The work I was tasked with, was editing things such as webpages, newsletters, icons and a little bit of video editing, although what I do is mainly organise the media into their respective folders, but it's a good start!

For the most part I was quite bored, because there wasn't much to do, just admin stuff, but hopefully soon we'll get more things going. So that's all I have to on that. Right now, I'm going to be working on my university assignments. Although...one assignment is more of a group thing and I need to film for it. The other one...I need to approve with my lecturer the topic of my essay and the last...I need approval for the subject of the script...so mainly what I'm doing today is background reading and such.

I've already started. Just now I have finished watching the documentary Nanook Of The North. It is such a cute documentary I have to say. Watching an entire family try to live out the cold in the Arctic is such a brave thing, and I was so moved by it. Don't worry, I'll write a proper review later, but if you haven't seen it, and you are into documentary, it is one for you. It is one of the oldest documentaries in the history of film, and I do suggest it, because it is a really good example of how documentaries began.

Anyway that's all I'll be saying for now, and I hope you take my advice. God bless. ^^

Back In The Film Industry

Hello everyone, today, Monday 22nd September, is the day I officially start my second year at university. Yes I'm back in uni, so the story updates and editing will take a little longer due to projects and exercises that I'll have to do, since this year counts towards my final grade...So...wish me luck!

Anyway, so far I'm nearly halfway through editing the second draft of this story, and as a consequence new chapters have been added, because the first draft wasn't quite up to scratch, but I have refined it, and it's probably going to be longer than I initially thought it would be. So far, I have around 250 pages (A5)...not sure if that is an average book size but it's getting there...I think.

As for university and work...well...(*smirk*) In uni we are going to be working on documentaries, something I haven't had the joy of experiencing. Hopefully this year, it won't be horrific, and I hope my group (whoever I work with) and I will be able to come up with something a whole lot better than last year. Well that's one module, the other two, for this semester are Screenwriting and Recording Reality, I'm not quite sure what these modules involve, but when I do find out, I'll let you know, although, one of them seems to be pretty straightforward...the other, I'm guessing is a theory based one, since it's the same lecturer I had for the theory last year.

Work-wise, I'm actually pretty excited. You see, just before I took to blogger, I had received a phone call from an employer I'd contacted earlier this year (calendar not academic), and he has invited to speak to me personally about an internship role that I was applying for! I think I might get the job (it's unpaid, but hopefully if things go well I might end up getting paid); it's too early to tell, but if I do, I will have the experience I will probably need to one up others in my course! I really want this job, I would love being production assistant, you know researching, planning, and all that. I do like that stuff, since it's pretty much my area of expertise. Anyway, I really do hope I can get this job, because my sister already has one (a part-time in a Ryman's shop...it's still a job!) and well it just much more pressure to get one, and I don't like being compared to her, so hopefully I get it! Well, wish me good luck you guys! I'm going to need it.

That's it for now, I'll probably write another post by the end of the week, and I'll let you know what happened. For now, over and out! ^^

Update Time - I Really Work Fast

Ok so yes I think these updates will be daily. First off I have been working very hard on this project and I am completely convinced I will be able to finish it soon. I am already on chapter 10 that's why.

After my inspiration burn out I think chapter 9 and 10 will just be fillers until the next plot change. they will be a bit shorter than the others I've done. These chapters are dragging now, because I need to wait until the plot twist, so I'm sorry if they aren't quite as fun as the others. You'll understand when you read.

While writing for chapter 10 I was very tempted to include something that would probably make my parents blush, because, as I mentioned in the page for this story, this story is largely based on one of the many fan fictions I have come to love, and well thanks to fan fiction my innocence is ruined, maybe not physically, but in other ways.

So summary of what inspired me to write these chapters:

In chapter 8 there was something that was really disturbing for my characters so chapter 9 was a segue into the next set of normalcy. I was inspired by one of the situations in "Of Dreams And Broken Things" and although it isn't quite as intense as Jareth and Sarah's opening up, I dreamed myself into the role. When you read it you'll understand what I mean, because Kaylin's situation isn't as bad as Sarah's in this fiction.

Now chapter 10 it's going to be just a filler, until the main action in the next few chapters. So I'm sorry if it seems very drab, but I kinda need it to prove that the next few actions are linked, so pay attention when you read it.

Just a little bit about chapter 11. It's going to be another fill because I just realised that chapter 10 has had a bit of a twist, so this chapter will be the filler, because the time difference between the chapters are quite short - they usually last between a few days and the week, so perhaps in this chapter the next week will fly by, perhaps not. It's a work in progress.

As always please do with this post what you will and God Bless. ^^

Update Time - Work Experience Is Over

Yes as in the title, my work experience is finally over! Not that it wasn't fun, it was just exhausting, I hope I don't work in an office. I prefer the flexible hours...nine to five just doesn't cut it for me. Anyway, now I can work on my story. So far I've done six chapters and am working on the seventh.

Ok so here's the low down on my work experience. The first week was spent getting to know the place, which was not that hard, since it was just a two floor office. My duties were basically house chores, and I pretty much cleaned whatever needed cleaning. However I did get to do a script report, which wasn't all that bad. Towards the end of the week I got to work in distribution, and I pretty much did the dirty work there. Like I said before, I called up cinema chains to ask about a particular trailer, and well spent most of my time in their office.

During the second week, I was mainly in the distribution office, researching and contacting agencies about certain celebrities, who would attend the premier of the film that the previous week was about. They were closing a film, so they needed all the publicity they could get. However in the last two days I had to return to the production office, because the other runner was away doing some other errand. On Thursday, I was given the most torturous errand I ever encountered. I had to buy breakfast for twenty odd people, because they were shooting a film the next day, and no one had anticipated the many things I had to buy. I didn't have a car, and I don't know how to drive, so I had to ask my supervisor for help carrying the shopping back to the office, which pretty much destroyed my hands, as the bags were digging into my fingers. You don't know how much pain I was in, and by the time I got home, I was so exhausted I couldn't even stand straight for a second.

Friday was worse. I had to run all the way to central London to deliver some packages, and I didn't get back to the office until around 2pm. I didn't want to spend too much money on travel so instead of using the bus, I walked all over the place, and only used my Oyster Card on the Tube when I had to. It was exhausting, and my feet were throbbing by the time I came back. I couldn't even stand when I got home.

But now that that's all over, and I am free, I can say that although it was exhausting, it was exciting and fun, despite the fact that I was in an office and all I really did was house chores, but listening to the people work there, I learned a lot about the film industry, and I have never wanted to work in the industry more. I loved it, and hope that one day in the near future I can do something similar, after I finish my degree.

Now on to more immediate problems, the novel, or the blog novel...whatever you lot call it. Like I said, I've written six/seven chapters, so it should be up soon. I hope to do thirty chapters, so it will take up the better part of my holidays. Hopefully I can bring my Macbook with me on holiday so I can continue working on it, but who knows. In any case, for those of you who are dying for previews (because I know there must be some people who are interested in it) I'll show a little extract from chapter 1. For now please be content, I'm working as fast as I can on it, but I still need to refine it, so please be patient.

As always, do with this post what you will and God Bless. ^^

Chapter 1

In the early morning sunlight the birds of the green forests could be heard chirping, and singing songs of their dreams, telling each other what wonders they’d seen. Little creatures bounce around tree trunks chasing each other, playing like little children. Pixies and fairies could be seen darting in and out of leaves and flowers waking each other up to greet the morning. Everything was peaceful; everything had melodies and harmonies that flowed in perfect synchronisation. Until the sound of heavy breathing could be heard, and the rush of running feet followed closed behind. Yes everything was peaceful and beautiful, but not for Kaylin. No, Kaylin was running, running for her life, for it literally depended on her, she needed to make it clear of the forest before she can truly relax. Since midnight, she’d been running. She knew that if she stopped it would be one less second she’d make it out; she didn’t want to go back.

Every now and then Kaylin would turn dark emerald eyes over her shoulder, to check whether or not she was in immediate danger, but seeing no approaching figure, she was still in the clear. No she did not want to go back to the city, she wanted to get away as far as possible. As soon as she made it out of the city she’d turn west, back to the Pass of Renia, in the mountains, to find her mother, and hope she was still alive and well, hoping she would welcome her with open arms.

Kaylin loved the mountains, especially living at their base. Every time she looked up at them, they reminded her of stairs leading to the heavens. She learned long ago about the Lathanor People, who used to visit Denÿce and bestow their grace and blessings all its people, but after a time the people of Denÿce grew distant, and the only people who truly believed in them were the people Irenia and The Crystal Forest of Dreams.

So whenever her mother had to harvest she’d take Kaylin with her, up the mountains, to find small flowers and plants, which she used to make potions from, or use in decorations for the villagers that lived nearby. As her mother worked, Kaylin would play, and climb further up the mountain, of course she’d want to climb to the top, but she knew her mother would worry. When her mother would call her back, she’d come running down the mountain, to meet her at the base, so that they could walk home together.

One day, when Kaylin was old enough to run up the mountains by herself, she’d gone up one particular mountain that, when you reached the top, you could see The Crystal Forest of Dreams, and when dusk was approaching she set off down the mountain, back to her mother’s cottage. However before she reached the base, a band of men had found her and dragged her off as a slave before she could reach the cottage.

After that she was sold to Lorien Thandor, who was known in all Irenia as the cruellest man to any female servant he had, and she shivered every time he looked at her. His eyes would fill with the most disgusting spark of lust, and hatred. He both hated her and wanted, and she hoped that his hate would always win over, because she didn’t want to know what would happen if his lust took over.

Many times he would come close, but she’d always remind him of his hate, before he could do anything. She’d learned to handle his hate, and made sure that he’d always have a reason to hate her, because that way, she’d be safe. She didn’t want to lose the one thing that was uniquely her. She didn’t want to be like all the other slaves who gave up when he’d find a reason to torture them. During her first years, she quickly learned how to keep herself safe, while he was doing things to her.

Project Update

Ok so here is the update. So I've been hard at work with this story, and well, lets just say I've made quite the progress. I'm already on Chapter 5, so hopefully before the summer is through, the story will be up and running. However to tell the truth, I'd probably be further along if I didn't have work experience.

Yes I've been "running" for a company this past week, and next week is my last week there, so my work experience lasts two weeks. I haven't had the time to work on my story so I'm sorry if it's taking too long. During this experience I've had to call cinema chains to make sure a trailer is being shown, and this next week, I might have to call up agents of celebrities to ask about an after party or if their client will be coming to the premier of a certain movie. I won't say which film or what celebrity, I'm still not sure I will be calling them anyway.

The truth is, my first week is the "student" week, because the runner before me knew what to do, this time, she won't be there, because her time and mine are staggered, so she won't be there. This coming week I'll be with someone new, and I'll have to give them a rundown of the job description.

So I'll probably have very little time to work on my story this coming week. Again forgive me, the less time spent on this story, the more you'll all be agitated, so yes sorry.

Anyway, back to the the story. I have yet to decide on chapter titles. I may not give them any, but if I have any comment that you want them, then I'll add them. Oh and I almost forgot, the story is not just one. It's actually going to be a trilogy, so watch out for other blogs, that will be connected to "The Last of the Dreamers".

And so now here we go, as always do with this post what you will. God bless ^^