Stressing Out And Spiritual Reflections

Right well, first off, I'm currently in the middle of reviewing my fourth draft for my story, in which the first five chapters are all ready and just need a few tweaking. It'll be up soon! I promise! Second, it's October (the perfect time for mystical, magical things to happen - although it's highly impossible for things to happen to me), and the LEAGUE OF LEGENDS WORLD CHAMPIONSHIP tournament is playing throughout the weekend, so get ready for LEAGUE OF LEGENDS SPAMS!!!!  Third I'll be getting a job soon! Actually it's my sister's old job, so I know what sort of things she goes through...most of the time, so expect rants on customers (*secret evil chuckle*). And finally, MY LAST YEAR AT UNIVERSITY IS ALREADY UNDERWAY!!!!!

Ok, so let's start with the story. So over the last few months, I've actually gone into detail about the background of this strange world. In this first novel (Which is taking forever to complete, thanks to both my own obsessive need for sense and the fact that I like it to be perfect) we're walking in the north of the concerned world (I've even drawn a rough map!) and I'm actually creating floor plans of the palaces and homes that my characters step into. It's going to take a while to finish, but at least I know where they're going to go. Anyway, so the main thing I want to speak about for this is that I can actually compare myself to my characters...well at least the main heroines. Basically...if you haven't already guessed, there are Seven...sort of...godlike characters. Basically think of the archangels like Michael, Gabriel, etc, but they're magical. They're not warriors but more like peacekeepers.

Of course, many people think that "peacekeepers" are passive people, they tend to want everyone to love each other, and good to reign and blah, blah, blah. The Great Seven, as they're called, aren't exactly like that. I mean sure they try to stop anyone from fighting, but they know it's never going to happen, since free will means that selfish acts have to happen. However, they will do their best to stop these selfish acts for spiralling out of control. So when their "brothers" decide to take over and force people to do the things they want, they decide to fight back. And when they do get things back on track they just watch over the people that walk their worlds. Oh and because I'm trying to keep things as "scientifically" plausible as possible (like that's not a tongue twister) their worlds, like Earth, will have their natural disasters, which these beings control, if only to test their people and their faith in them. So yeah, that's my definition of "peacekeepers". The Great Seven obviously need to keep the balance. If there is no act of selfishness or evil, then no one will really know what good is. So that's what The Great Seven do to ensure their subjects remember why they try to strive for goodness.

So yeah, that's how they are, roughly, I will be putting up the full detailed background information of the novel(s) up prior to the first novel, so that you guys get a taste of what's going on before you actually read it/them. Anyway, that's what the Great Seven are, and what they do. As for the reason why I compare myself to them, it's because I've realised that I've based them on the seven virtues. They're basically the embodiments of each virtue:

• Earth - Kindness
• Water - Diligence
• Fire - Patience
• Air - Temperance
• Light - Charity
• Night - Chastity
• Fate/Destiny - Humility

I also based their trials on the Seven Gifts of the Holy Spirit (which are explained by the Catechism of the Catholic Church):

• Earth - Knowledge
• Water - Piety
• Fire - Courage
• Air - Counsel (Right Judgement)
• Light - Understanding
• Night - Fear of God (Wonder/Awe)
• Fate/Destiny - Wisdom

Again, I'll explain the reasons for this in the background when I upload it later. As for now, you guys can debate about it amongst yourselves. So yeah, as I was researching about all this, I started comparing my own experiences and reactions to the world to these virtues and gifts, and I've noticed, I basically dip into each one, but I don't fully associate with any of them. It's rather disturbing how little I can associate with them, and I've found myself trying to better myself so that I can actually say, I'm not a bad person. I've realised, as I ponder what I need to do to be better, that it's very easy to fall into the trap of being a "bad" person. I mean sometimes, as I've probably already said, I can literally feel how fragile my body is, like I know that if one wrong moment of exposure could easily destroy my body. It's the same here with my spirituality. I can feel the knife's edge I'm balancing on. I could easily tip one way or the other, and it's rather scary how think this ledge is. Is it just me or does anyone else feel like that too? So yeah, that's the "Spiritual Reflections" part of this post (which I realise now how long it will be).

Now on to the next parts!

Warning! LEAGUE OF LEGENDS SPAM ABOUT TO START! Warning!

As I've said, the League of Legends World Championships are currently on and were' currently into our second week of the Group Stages!!! OMG! I REALLY AM LOVING THIS! I know this championship is going to be oh so woefully one sided, but hey, these people are veterans and they are good at what they do. So what's going on so far? Basically, two groups (out of the four) have two clear winners. First off, in Group A, both Flash Wolves and KOO Tigers have qualified for the Quarterfinals (here in London!) with 4-2 each. In Group C SKT T1 are the clearcut winners with 6-0, with EDG (Edward Gaming) running up at 4-2 (So far). Of course the other two groups can be easily predicted.

Right now, my predictions are, for Group D (who'll be playing tomorrow), Origen and KT Rolster will be qualifying for the Quarterfinals, and for Group B, Cloud 9 and either Invictus Gaming or Fnatic will be their qualifiers. So those are my predictions, but they can change throughout the course of the next two days, since their matches are on during the weekend. If you want to see the progress of my mentality then follow me on Twitter: Vanessa Rocha. 

Anyway, preceding the Worlds Championship...this has been long in the making, but as you all know I play League of Legends with a few of my film production buddies. Well, over the summer we've decided to actually set up a YouTube channel of our own (yes there are many who've already established their names in gaming and whatnots) but this channel will be very different. Yes we'll have VODS of our games and gameplay, but we're not going to put our film production skills to waste. We're also going to add actual short films and series (that have been made) with our filming expertise, but that's going to be way into the future, when we have a solid idea for our channel.

So yes, I have been a busy girl over the summer. THANK YOU DEPRESSION! As you all know I've had my major ups and downs during the summer, so in my need to not get so down, I've kept myself busy! It's something to help me cope. I acknowledge how down I can get, but I don't want it to ruin my life so I keep busy!

But yes. We'll be uploading our first videos soon, so look out for the new content. I'll be posting them up on my "official" website and here soon. SO WATCH OUT!!!

Back to our regular scheduled programming...

Alright so that's done, let's talk about this new job. So basically for a long time I've been trying to get a job, albeit half-heartedly, because I'm already in university, and in my last year, so I really need to start taking responsibility. Originally I was going to try to find something related to media or film, but because most of that need experience, which I woefully lack, I've resorted into trying to find whatever  job I can get. But thankfully, my sister has helped me get my foot in the door. So, some perspective. She currently works at Ryman (a stationary store here in London) and because she's gotten tired of her work, plus she's going back to uni (and her course is a bitch!), she's quitting. But because the store she works for is woefully understaffed, she's suggested me as her replacement. So...I'VE GOT A JOB!!! Granted I have to go in for an interview early tomorrow, but it's just formality because her manager really does need people to help out, so I'm guaranteed to get the job!

And finally, for the main part of this post...I am in my last year of university, it started around three weeks ago...AND I'M ALREADY FREAKING OUT!!!! I have so many assignments to complete! Ok, so here's what I have to do:

• A Script Analysis
• A Treatment for said analysis
• A Storyboard
• A Storyboard Edit (with Voiceover, SFX and Music)
• A PowerPoint Presentation about a social issue surround film representation
• A Treatment and 15 pages for my own 50minute script

And for some of them I will need to include a critical analysis...just to show my own reflection on what I did...I CAN'T DO THIS!!!

First off, the first four are for one module...You know how when you think film production, you immediately turn to "director"...well that was me before I took up this degree. I thought that maybe, if I was ambitious enough, I'd be able to call myself a director...but I am so naive! That path is definitely not for me, and this module proves it!!! I can not be a director, because I don't like the idea of having that power and responsibility! It's too much work for me! I know there are many women out there who think "No you can do this! We are women, make us proud!"...Yeah, I'm all for that...But my own personality is not the type that will withstand that pressure!

The PowerPoint Presentation is another thing I hate! I really hate standing in front of an audience and speaking! I hate it! I hate it with a passion!!! I had hoped that I wouldn't have to do it, but no! IT'S AN ACTUAL ASSIGNMENT!!!! Just kill me now!

As for the last one, I'm good with that, I actually don't mind. I'm already almost done with the treatment, and I'll be soon starting on the 15 pages. I'm glad I chose this option of the Project module. That, I'm happy about. But still, it's a lot of pressure! I've got a lot of writing, rehearsing, and socialising I need to do. I mean I have like 3 more weeks before things start to need to be handed in and it's so stressful!!! I really need to buckle down and work soon. It's going to be a lot of work!!! I HATE THIS SEMESTER!!!! SOMEONE KILL ME! ><

Anyway, that's it (sorry for the long post) and I'll see you all next time. As always, do with this post what you will! This is FeatherCharm, signing out! God Bless!

Bring Back The Prep in Prepared

Ok, so enough of the depressing blog posts, I'm back, and I'm not going to do that ever again. My body just can't take it. So with the Christmas season coming up, I'm going to be a busy bee. During this holiday, my family and I are going to travel to Belgium for the Christmas Market (from the 29th December), and pretty much the New Year.

Speaking of the New Year, I've made a new resolution. Not only am I going to be getting back on the fitness wagon, but I will also be working towards my goal - becoming a writer. While I've go the film and TV show reviews down (which I will be getting back to), I will also be writing about my travels. That's write (get it?) I'll be writing about all the things I've done on holiday, and I will be starting with this Belgium trip. So look forward to a page dedicated to these posts...or maybe a new blog...like I haven't already made loads. XP

So yes, this upcoming year, I'll be working very hard to get myself off the ground and not mope about how agitated I'll get with people who don't work. Oh and for those of you who are reading this blog, and are going to the same university with me, don't worry, I won't be writing anything so hurtful again. If anything, I'll slam out my frustrations on League of Legends and other stress busting games.

Now that last sentence segues nicely into my next topic. LEAGUE OF LEGENDS!!!!! Oh I can't tell you how good and free it feels to be Level 30, which is the highest level you can achieve in LoL (other than the actual leagues). I could easily do ranked games...but I don't have enough champions and I've only been focused on one champion...and I need to work on the others...so it's going to be a while before I start ranked.

However, I've been watching different plays and the different tournaments, and I'm happy to say, I've nicely started becoming obsessed with the game...so look out everyone! I'll be ranting and raving about the different tournaments and teams...wow...how geeky is that?

Anyway, it's going to be a while before I post up anything new so for all of you out there:

Merry Christmas!

And

Happy New Year!

Gaming and Work Hiatus

Yes as the title says I will be taking some time off, perhaps a month or two, because lately I have not been feeling well. As you can tell from Ereimul Reviews (I might actually change the title) I have not written a review for the newest episodes for The Big Bang Theory, Doctor Who or even Once Upon A Time. The truth is, I am going through a personal crisis right now, and I don't think I can handle work alongside this crisis.

I know you all may want to know what this crisis is, but I don't think I will tell, nor will I feel obliged to tell you all. Don't worry though, I have help at hand, so no one need worry. For now, please be patient with me. I will eventually get back up on my feet.

As for the updates, I'm currently working on chapter 23 of this story, and it will annoy you all, I understand that...and when you initially read it, I know you'll all want to throw your laptops or computers or tables at the wall, but I promise you it's not a "she woke up and it was all a dream" situation, read on and it will all make sense (trust me her adventures are not a dream). The idea was taken from Of Dreams and Broken Things (the fan fiction for Labyrinth) and for those of you who have read it, you'll understand what I mean.

Now for my gaming hiatus. Yes I will be taking time off League of Legends partly because my alert pings have not been working well, and I might have to uninstall the game in order to correct the problem, but I assure you after my hiatus is over, I will be back on the game as soon as possible. Speaking of League of Legends, did anyone see the finals? I knew Samsung White was going to win! It was so obvious, Star Horn Royal Club had no chance against them...Have you seen the stats? Anyway, I'm glad Samsung White won, in their own country, I guess it's a nation thing...but hopefully over the next few years, more "Western" teams can feature in these games, I know how great they can be, and I know how tough "Asian" teams are, one day there will be equality, I just know it!

Anyway, that's it for now, so sing a song, read a book or whatever...and as always, do with this post what you want, except copy it because it's my stuff!! ^^

Slowly But Surely

Hello everyone!!! It's me (not like anyone actually knows who I am)...just a small update, because I'm really bored and, although I'm in my lecture, I'm not really paying attention, since I'm at the back...

Anyway, you should all be happy to know, that I'm nearing the end of my second draft, and the next secret I will tell you is the name of my main character!!! I can't wait! So far I'm on chapter 22, and that is halfway complete, and I'm really really sorry about this chapter (actually I'm sorry about the ending of this book, it's really cruel)...I do have a dark side so that just...yeah...

So very soon, I will be working on the third draft...if my reviewers can get to me soon...and the final draft will be up by Christmas or New Year (hopefully). I actually can't wait! It's going to be so good! You know initially I had thought it would be easy to write this...but any writer knows...IT IS TOO DAMN HARD! Ideas flow in and out, and I just can't get the right train to finish this...

On another note...When I started this new story I did say I was going to use names from the old story (like Arion, Nyx and whatnots) but I realised, if I want the names to mean something in this story, it has to be related to what I want...I can't just make up the meaning, when there are already many. However, I may use some of the old names for the other stories, like for Dark (I think, especially for Dark, because I'm going to be using a certain theme for that one).

Moving on...I know I'm talking in bits right now, but I'm switching from listening to the lecture and writing this...it's annoying! I want to sleep, play League of Legends and work on my story!!!! SOMEONE GET ME OUT OF HERE!

Speaking of League of Legends...WHO'S READY FOR THE FINALS!!!!! I can't wait! I don't know who I want to win...although I'm more for Samsung White...who do you root for? Anyway...I actually can't wait, and I bet there will be a Pentakill in one of these games, both teams are so AWESOM!!!!!!!!

So, yes, that's it, and do with this what you want, because I don't really care anymore (except copying, I hate copiers!).

Tea, Creativity, and Bad WiFi Connections

Once more I am in a cafe, writing a blog post, drinking Chai Tea Latte and writing my story. I'm still on Chapter 20, for those of you keeping up, I am almost done with it and will soon be moving onto Chapter 21...FINALLY! It's been a long time in the making, because I just can't be bothered in the evening. You know? I just want to rest, play League of Legends and wind down for sleep. I've just been so tired lately.

Oh speaking of Leagues...WHO'S READY FOR THE WORLD SEMIFINALS! I AM!!! Although...I may have to watch the rebroadcast, because I'll probably be watching Doctor Who at the same time...Yes, I'll be watching the new episode with Peter Capaldi, Mummy on the Orient Express.

Are all you Whovian's ready for that? I know I am. I literally can't wait, it's combining my two favourite franchises (well I say franchise), The Mummy (1999), and Agatha Christie's Hercule Poirot.  It's the best! As I've said to my friends, it's going to be AWESOME! I can't believe they're incorporating Agatha Christie again! Well...it's not her directly, but her most famous detective. Seriously, Poirot's most infamous case The Murder On The Orient Express I can't wait!!!!

Sorry...fangirling there...Where was I? Oh yes, I'm in Starbucks, writing this post...taking a break from the novel...Yeah, yeah, I know! Get back to work on it! Well, I've worked on it for an hour straight...although I could do more, but I have a seminar in 56 minutes (YES I HAVE TO BE EXACT!)...well, 56 minutes from the time I've written this part down. So I can't completely absorb myself.

Anyway...All alone here in this lonely cafe, because I'd rather go down the writer's road. I remember my Screenwriting tutor saying it's a lonely career, but that's the best thing for me. I'm left with my imagination, and I don't care, it's the most beautiful place I've ever been to, and I'd rather not let anyone else in. It's my place, and I'm happy there. Although...I do get lonely sometimes, but that's what my characters are there for, it's so blissful here.

Oh and for the "Bad WiFi Connections" part of the title is because the WiFi here is so bad, it'll probably take the entire year for this post to come up. That's pretty much it.

One more thing, don't miss this week's newest post on my reviews blog: Doctor Who: The Mummy on the Orient Express. It's going to be a blast!

As always do with this post what you will (except copy it), and I'll speak to you all soon. God bless. ^^

Cafe Musings and Wasted Batteries

I really need to remember to bring my laptop charger when I bring my laptop into uni. I'm currently running on 33% of battery. Seriously it's ridiculous that I keep forgetting. Anyway, I'm still working on chapter 20, but it's slowly getting there - that is chapter 20 of my story. So, this is the five hour wait, and I'm sitting here in Starbucks, writing random things. Since I need a little break from my story, I decided to fulfil my promise to write a review on one of my favourite TV shows, The Big Bang Theory, it's up and if you want the link it's right here:

The Big Bang Theory: The Hook-Up Reverberation

I know the blog is looking a little rushed, but that's because I still have a lot of things to do, both for university and my personal projects, so please be patient, I will get round to fixing all these things.

So, now I'm here, writing this blog post, with headphones in, because the noise in this cafe, well...it's not that bad, but sitting right next two me are two girls, who I think are from the university, and they are talking non-stop. With that in mind, I'm currently listening to Lindsey Stirling's Roundtable Rival. To be honest this song kind of reminds me of her other one, Master of Tides. They're both so cool, and you can just imagine dancing to them. Anyway, what am I going to do for the next 3 hours? I could go back to writing the story, and I will, but again, I will need breaks...I can't easily play League of Legends, the connection here isn't really that good, and I didn't bring my mouse (I've recently discovered how easy it is to play with a mouse, rather than the tap pad that comes with the laptop). I think the best distraction will probably be my iPad (if I can be bothered to reconnect to the wifi) or the most basic of basics, Facebook. 

Do you know how much time I waste on that thing. Honestly, there really is nothing special to it anymore, nor are there any good articles or posts or memes, it's all just repeats now...I guess the only good thing about it is I see great structures and architectures, from a page I've liked, but even so, those places make me jealous, and I really just want to travel to those places to say I've been there!

It's kind of annoying that I've now developed an impatience because everything has now become so fast and quick. Which reminds me, I pitched my documentary idea yesterday, and as predicted I forgot what I wanted to say, but what I've just written reminds me of what I wanted to do for my documentary.

Instead of actually making a documentary. I think I'll put the question to you: can you survive post-technology? So can you live without your telephone, mobile/cell phone, tablet (whichever: iPad or other tablet), the computer, your laptop, your TV and anything electronic (except the basics, lights, water, etc.) Anything to do with communication and Internet access, is basically off limits. I'll try it...for one week...perhaps after university. I'll document it, I know using a camera counts as using technology, but if it's just the camera, it should be fine...if someone else operates it for me.

Well, we'll see if I go through with it. I'll let you all know if someone will agree to do it with me. I'm sure there are many tribes in the remotest parts of the world that do survive without the internet and whatnots, but they are exposed to it one way or the other, I'm sure.

Anyway, wow...this was a long post. I shall leave you to continue browsing through Facebook or whatnots. As always, do with this post what you will...EXCEPT COPY! I HATE COPIERS! Bye! ^^

Update Time - Delays In Schedule

Ok, so I'm going to try again this week, I mean try again in terms of two chapters a day, because I am almost there, and I really need to finish it, review it, and hear the reviews of my betas. So it'll probably be another month before I can upload the story onto my blog.

Well now, I'm now on Chapter 17. So it's fair to say that I'm slowly making it through the last leg of my story. Yesterday was well needed, my time with my old friend was actually helpful. It was great seeing her again, and hearing all her funny stories.

We had lunch at a nice little restaurant, which was actually not that bad, the food was actually quite nice. I think we spent two hours there, because we just couldn't stop talking about our lives. When we did finally leave, we went walking around Oxford Street, I wanted to buy an umbrella and in the end I bought one and a dress, for my holiday in Cancun at the end of the month.

To say the least I was exhausted by the end of the day, but it was so worth it. I loved spending time with her when we were both still in school. Now that our careers are going in separate ways, it's hard to see each other, but hopefully the next time it won't be so long before we catch up. It was nice seeing her again.

So my hiatus is over, I'll be writing as fast as I can so I can review and edit parts of it, and hopefully I'll be done in the next week. Not to mention I'll also edit the blog itself.

As for now, I'll be taking quite a few breaks while I'm writing...mainly playing League of Legends...It's a cool game! So the last few chapters will take a while to finish, but on the whole, thanks for being patient, and I will upload the story as soon as I can.

Sorry for the short post, I know it's my forte to write quite long ones, but right now I'm kind of not feeling it, so as always please do with this post what you will, and God Bless. ^^