Hello Again!

Finally I'm back, I've had to take a two week hiatus, it seems, because a lot of things happened. The first week we were still adjusting to London time (since we were still a little jet lagged), and the second my sister and I visited our cousins (and they visited us).

So in short it's been "busy" not to mention my muse has run away for those two weeks, which wasn't quite that big of a deal, because I think she really needed that holiday. She's come back (finally) and is ready and rearing to go. So you probably won't hear from me, for a little while, because she's pushing me to continue the story.

At the moment, all I can say is that chapter 8 will soon be done and perhaps by the end of the week I'll be done with chapter 10 or so, we'll see, if I'm not distracted, maybe it could happen.

Sorry for the short update, I can't really say anymore on the subject, because I may just be giving everything away. So be good for now. ^^

Update Time - Sunday Shopping and Catch-Ups

Hi guys, so I was right, I wasn't going to finish Chapter 7 yesterday, in fact, I'm still working on it today. Hopefully it will be done tonight. I think my muse is trying to run off with her husband, but right now, I have to keep her chained to the wall, just so she could finish this story (oh and by the way, her husband is imagination. He seems to be doing a good job of tempting me to let her go, and well many times I've tried to throw him a bone, so he doesn't try again, but who knows, he's a slippery snake).

Ok so I went grocery shopping with my parents, and I haven't done that in a very long time, and I sort of miss it. Maybe the next time they go, I'll ask to tag along (I highly doubt it though). The truth is, the reason why is because I need a new picture for my passport, because well, mine's soon to expire, so I needed to use the booth in the corner of the supermarket. So yes I went shopping with them because I needed to take a picture. It was ok...I wasn't overly fond of it, I just wish I could have worn my glasses, because I really look Chinese in the picture.

Anyway, as for the second part of the title, I've just recently been added by an old friend, who I haven't spoken to in a long time, and we've just chatted about our careers, she's going into travel and tourism, I'm going into film as you all know. It's really cool, we might end up seeing each other, if ever I need to travel for my job. But that's probably going to be way into the future.

I know this is way off topic, but I may just make another blog, for my film reviews. I will still be doing them, when I get the chance, but at the moment it's still in the works. That way, the reviews will be separate from these rants, and updates. Yeah, I think I might just do that. Oh and I'll probably move the reviews I've already done, to that blog. So watch out for another link that will probably be coming your way.

So that's it for now, and when I've made probably three more chapters in this stupid story, I'll be getting back to you. For now, over and out! ^^ (I'm going to try a new thing...since my sign outs are getting boring (ooo....speaking of which, I might add some sort of logo or emblem, that represents me or something, who knows...)

Update Time - Noontime Nappings

Hi guys. Well first of all, I wasn't planning to do this, but because I promised a daily update, I might as well. Today, I'm working on Chapter 7, which seems to be another filler, but then again, there is quite a few things happening here. However I don't think I'll get it done, before tomorrow, since I'm actually quite tired.

I was working on chapter 6 late last night, and only started chapter 7, but it was nearly midnight, which is kind of my bedtime (yes I sleep early, so what), but I couldn't get any real sleep. For some reason, I woke up at 2am, and didn't get back to sleep until much later. Then I woke up at 8am, rather groggily. I didn't have breakfast, and only had an early lunch, then I took a nap, and now, I just feel a little bit too lazy, so I'm not working as fast as I usually would. I'm sorry. I know you're all looking forward to reading this story, but you'll all have to bear with me on it, because it's just going to take a little bit longer than we all thought.

As for the story itself, don't worry, things are working as they should. I've written out the detailed version of the plot, and it will be posted up, just before I put the actual story online, and there will be much crying (maybe not real tears but as in...you know...you know...oh...shut up!) and much hatred amongst you, but I won't care, because it means I'm doing my job. Oh and I will also post up pictures (not created by me) that well imply my different characters, I might put them up on a post or page on the story blog, or the corresponding pages on this blog, but we'll have to wait and see. 

For now, bear with, because it's going to be a long ride, and it will kill me to do some of the things I'd planned, but I assure you it will get done.

So as always, be good, and do with this post what you will. God Bless. ^^

Update Time - A Chapter A Day

Well, I've finished the first third of my story to say the least. I'm already on chapter 12 and it is coming along quite nicely. Although I'm still iffy about one thing or other, maybe when I get my reviews I'll be able to clear up some of the mess I've made. When I do eventually post up this story, I hope it does make sense, because the people I've sent the story to kind of have the same mindset as me, so they'll understand, but as for the public...I'm not so sure, so please, when I do post this story up, comment any review that you feel necessary, and I promise I'll edit appropriately.

You know what? I think this story is doing more good than harm. Yes more GOOD than HARM. I think it's because it's actually helping me come to terms with my demons (yes you all know what those are...if you've been reading my posts). Looking back, I was really depressed on Saturday because I saw my cousins with their partners, and I didn't have one. I was so down that I could even function socially, and I demanded my cousin's company, just to vent out my frustrations. However just after we had arranged the details of our outing, I took to my laptop and began writing furiously, as sudden inspiration hit me, I wrote for nearly three chapters straight. When that streak finally ended, I found myself in a bizarre sense of serenity, like the melancholy of the past year just floated away. Granted that happened every time I did feel the sudden dip in mood, but not quite as fulfilling as that one. I actually came to terms with it, and although I know it will be back, and I am still not happy, it doesn't mean I'm completely depressed. Instead I just feel like I don't care anymore, and that whatever everyone else has told me will come true (maybe not any time soon, but one day).

It's also helped me in other ways. You see, I think the reason I've not ever had a boyfriend, or even my first kiss was because I was still holding out for my first crush, which actually ended like three years after I no longer saw him every day, and I found there were much "bigger" and better fish out in the sea. However a small part of me still wanted to see what it would be like if I saw him again, that is, before I started this story. As I wrote the last few chapters that I had been working on last week, I realised, that I would probably never see him again, and most likely not, even in the slightest, ever want to be with him. I've seen bits and pieces of his life, don't get me wrong, I've looked him up on Facebook once or twice, just to see if he had changed or not, and suffice to say I no longer have any feelings towards him. I'd take a look at his picture and say "Really? I fancied that?" and I am relieved, to say the least.

So in the last few days I have, with the help of some oldies music and some venting through song, continued to write my feelings into the story, and now I have let go. I am free, and no longer burdened by the crushing defeat I had when I was but seven years old (that was when I had indirectly confessed my crush and was rejected). I can honestly say I have moved on, and now all I can do and will do is wait for that one person who will honestly make me feel like I am special, like I have a purpose and that I do make him happy.

Anyway that's it for now, this was more of a confession than an update, because well there was really nothing I had going in terms of the update, so this confession would have to suffice. So as always: do with this post what you will and God Bless. ^^

Update Time - Work Experience Is Over

Yes as in the title, my work experience is finally over! Not that it wasn't fun, it was just exhausting, I hope I don't work in an office. I prefer the flexible hours...nine to five just doesn't cut it for me. Anyway, now I can work on my story. So far I've done six chapters and am working on the seventh.

Ok so here's the low down on my work experience. The first week was spent getting to know the place, which was not that hard, since it was just a two floor office. My duties were basically house chores, and I pretty much cleaned whatever needed cleaning. However I did get to do a script report, which wasn't all that bad. Towards the end of the week I got to work in distribution, and I pretty much did the dirty work there. Like I said before, I called up cinema chains to ask about a particular trailer, and well spent most of my time in their office.

During the second week, I was mainly in the distribution office, researching and contacting agencies about certain celebrities, who would attend the premier of the film that the previous week was about. They were closing a film, so they needed all the publicity they could get. However in the last two days I had to return to the production office, because the other runner was away doing some other errand. On Thursday, I was given the most torturous errand I ever encountered. I had to buy breakfast for twenty odd people, because they were shooting a film the next day, and no one had anticipated the many things I had to buy. I didn't have a car, and I don't know how to drive, so I had to ask my supervisor for help carrying the shopping back to the office, which pretty much destroyed my hands, as the bags were digging into my fingers. You don't know how much pain I was in, and by the time I got home, I was so exhausted I couldn't even stand straight for a second.

Friday was worse. I had to run all the way to central London to deliver some packages, and I didn't get back to the office until around 2pm. I didn't want to spend too much money on travel so instead of using the bus, I walked all over the place, and only used my Oyster Card on the Tube when I had to. It was exhausting, and my feet were throbbing by the time I came back. I couldn't even stand when I got home.

But now that that's all over, and I am free, I can say that although it was exhausting, it was exciting and fun, despite the fact that I was in an office and all I really did was house chores, but listening to the people work there, I learned a lot about the film industry, and I have never wanted to work in the industry more. I loved it, and hope that one day in the near future I can do something similar, after I finish my degree.

Now on to more immediate problems, the novel, or the blog novel...whatever you lot call it. Like I said, I've written six/seven chapters, so it should be up soon. I hope to do thirty chapters, so it will take up the better part of my holidays. Hopefully I can bring my Macbook with me on holiday so I can continue working on it, but who knows. In any case, for those of you who are dying for previews (because I know there must be some people who are interested in it) I'll show a little extract from chapter 1. For now please be content, I'm working as fast as I can on it, but I still need to refine it, so please be patient.

As always, do with this post what you will and God Bless. ^^

Chapter 1

In the early morning sunlight the birds of the green forests could be heard chirping, and singing songs of their dreams, telling each other what wonders they’d seen. Little creatures bounce around tree trunks chasing each other, playing like little children. Pixies and fairies could be seen darting in and out of leaves and flowers waking each other up to greet the morning. Everything was peaceful; everything had melodies and harmonies that flowed in perfect synchronisation. Until the sound of heavy breathing could be heard, and the rush of running feet followed closed behind. Yes everything was peaceful and beautiful, but not for Kaylin. No, Kaylin was running, running for her life, for it literally depended on her, she needed to make it clear of the forest before she can truly relax. Since midnight, she’d been running. She knew that if she stopped it would be one less second she’d make it out; she didn’t want to go back.

Every now and then Kaylin would turn dark emerald eyes over her shoulder, to check whether or not she was in immediate danger, but seeing no approaching figure, she was still in the clear. No she did not want to go back to the city, she wanted to get away as far as possible. As soon as she made it out of the city she’d turn west, back to the Pass of Renia, in the mountains, to find her mother, and hope she was still alive and well, hoping she would welcome her with open arms.

Kaylin loved the mountains, especially living at their base. Every time she looked up at them, they reminded her of stairs leading to the heavens. She learned long ago about the Lathanor People, who used to visit Denÿce and bestow their grace and blessings all its people, but after a time the people of Denÿce grew distant, and the only people who truly believed in them were the people Irenia and The Crystal Forest of Dreams.

So whenever her mother had to harvest she’d take Kaylin with her, up the mountains, to find small flowers and plants, which she used to make potions from, or use in decorations for the villagers that lived nearby. As her mother worked, Kaylin would play, and climb further up the mountain, of course she’d want to climb to the top, but she knew her mother would worry. When her mother would call her back, she’d come running down the mountain, to meet her at the base, so that they could walk home together.

One day, when Kaylin was old enough to run up the mountains by herself, she’d gone up one particular mountain that, when you reached the top, you could see The Crystal Forest of Dreams, and when dusk was approaching she set off down the mountain, back to her mother’s cottage. However before she reached the base, a band of men had found her and dragged her off as a slave before she could reach the cottage.

After that she was sold to Lorien Thandor, who was known in all Irenia as the cruellest man to any female servant he had, and she shivered every time he looked at her. His eyes would fill with the most disgusting spark of lust, and hatred. He both hated her and wanted, and she hoped that his hate would always win over, because she didn’t want to know what would happen if his lust took over.

Many times he would come close, but she’d always remind him of his hate, before he could do anything. She’d learned to handle his hate, and made sure that he’d always have a reason to hate her, because that way, she’d be safe. She didn’t want to lose the one thing that was uniquely her. She didn’t want to be like all the other slaves who gave up when he’d find a reason to torture them. During her first years, she quickly learned how to keep herself safe, while he was doing things to her.