Working Depresses Me

Sitting here, in a university classroom, listening to the same mumbling lecturer has led me to do this. The stuff that we're listening to is pretty much depressing. It's either "freelance" or "run your own production company". Either way, he's pretty much saying, "Whatever you do, you're screwed!" So basically I'm taking up a degree for no apparent reason anymore. This is just dandy!

At least I'm not going into full out production or pre-production work. My chosen aspect of the film industry is somewhere along the line of distribution or promotion...basically I'd like to acquire films, and I'd like to be the one to get exhibitors (i.e. cinemas) to "exhibit" them. So a showreel would just be an extra of things...I guess. I will make a showreel, don't get me wrong, but I think I just need some time to improve it.

So what now? Well, usually being the vocal one in the lecture/seminar/workshop, I am now the one not paying attention, which is not very good nonetheless. It's because I'm already intimidated by those around me. There are those who will have more success than me. THEY'VE HAD MORE EXPERIENCE!!! I feel like a small fish in a big pond...no wait...the ocean! It's not fair! (As my favourite protagonist keeps saying...in my favourite film)

Yep...I'm definitely not really interested in this...because it's all production, and nothing about distribution...I know I should really be piping up and asking...but I'm really not bothered! I did try to keep interested but it's hard! Of course, there are a few things that I am interested in, but they're few and far between!

I guess I'm more interested in multimedia...which I should have done, but it required maths...good maths GCSEs and A-Levels! But it's not bad...I mean I do love film, and TV Studio Production was pretty much one of my favourite (if not my favourite) modules, but I don't think my place is behind a camera...maybe far behind it...like in the office, or at my home writing reviews, or something...

Anyway, that's it for now, so yeah...I know it's stinted, but it's because I'm still in a seminar...

By the way...WHY ARE ALL MY DEPRESSING POSTS THE ONE THAT GETS THE MOST VIEWS!!!! I feel used!

Slowly But Surely

Hello everyone!!! It's me (not like anyone actually knows who I am)...just a small update, because I'm really bored and, although I'm in my lecture, I'm not really paying attention, since I'm at the back...

Anyway, you should all be happy to know, that I'm nearing the end of my second draft, and the next secret I will tell you is the name of my main character!!! I can't wait! So far I'm on chapter 22, and that is halfway complete, and I'm really really sorry about this chapter (actually I'm sorry about the ending of this book, it's really cruel)...I do have a dark side so that just...yeah...

So very soon, I will be working on the third draft...if my reviewers can get to me soon...and the final draft will be up by Christmas or New Year (hopefully). I actually can't wait! It's going to be so good! You know initially I had thought it would be easy to write this...but any writer knows...IT IS TOO DAMN HARD! Ideas flow in and out, and I just can't get the right train to finish this...

On another note...When I started this new story I did say I was going to use names from the old story (like Arion, Nyx and whatnots) but I realised, if I want the names to mean something in this story, it has to be related to what I want...I can't just make up the meaning, when there are already many. However, I may use some of the old names for the other stories, like for Dark (I think, especially for Dark, because I'm going to be using a certain theme for that one).

Moving on...I know I'm talking in bits right now, but I'm switching from listening to the lecture and writing this...it's annoying! I want to sleep, play League of Legends and work on my story!!!! SOMEONE GET ME OUT OF HERE!

Speaking of League of Legends...WHO'S READY FOR THE FINALS!!!!! I can't wait! I don't know who I want to win...although I'm more for Samsung White...who do you root for? Anyway...I actually can't wait, and I bet there will be a Pentakill in one of these games, both teams are so AWESOM!!!!!!!!

So, yes, that's it, and do with this what you want, because I don't really care anymore (except copying, I hate copiers!).