The End of An Era and Growing Up

Hello everyone!

I'm back! Yeah, it's been a while, but university sort of caught up with me and took up all my time. Oh! Did I mention I also work at Ryman Stationery (not to be mistaken for stationAry). Yeah so work and uni took up all my time and I have not had a single day to myself since the second semester started. But now I'm back! Why?

BECAUSE I'M FINALLY FREE! NO MORE ASSIGNMENTS, NO MORE LECTURES! NO MORE UNI!!!! 

Yes that's right, I'm no longer a university student, and now a fully fledged adult...I say that with no small amount of terror...

Ok, so I'm not completely independent. I still live with my parents, I don't have to pay rent or a mortgage or even bills, but I no longer have to worry about studying and education and well basically schoolwork. What I have to worry about now is finding a job that suits my level of education...which will be a feat in itself...well at least for now I have a few projects lined up, and hopefully they burst me forward in my career. Lord only knows if I succeed.

Anyway, other than that I've finally decided to learn how to cook some easy dishes to feed myself. Yes my mom still cooks meals for dinner and we a lot of leftovers because of them, but she has agreed that once I start learning dishes for myself, she'll ease up on the cooking and let me take over, when I grow a bit more confident in myself.

Now for those of you who actually know me, I've never really cooked for myself, except for breakfasts and basically smoothies and sandwiches. I've never actually had to stand at the stove and cook proper meals for myself, so it was quite daunting when I cooked yesterday my very first chicken bake. I didn't know how it would turn out or if it would taste of anything other than burnt or raw.

So here's what it looked like while I was cooking it...

And here's what it looked like when it was done...

It's a far cry from what I expected it to be...

I got the recipe on Facebook...well actually I got it from Buzzfeed. If you want to try out for yourself, the link is below.

Four Ways to Make Chicken Bake

Anyway. I had expected the cooking to go wrong somewhere, because I've never had to cook anything besides breakfast before, so it was a surreal experience to try something so new. But I managed to do it, and it was quite tasty!

Thank you Buzzfeed!

Ok, so it was easy to make, but hey! I get points for credit anyway! So when I made it, I realised, I'm actually growing up and learning how to be an adult...oh god! I'm an adult now! That is exciting and terrifying at the same time! Is this really what it's like to be an adult! Well, I can't complain, I've got a few more decades to live it through, so hopefully the fates look kindly down on me and don't give me such a hard time!

Well, let me know what you think! Have you ever had that feeling before, when was your first experience at cooking, what was it like? What are your stories? I'd actually like to know.

As always, do with this post what you will! This is FeatherCharm, signing out! God Bless!

The End Of An Era

I think I've named a previous post this...oh well, never mind! Let's just say it's number two...Anyway. I am almost done with this first story!!! Yes I know I've only recently said I'm on chapter 15, but now I'm almost done with 16 and I'll have you know that I may finish the story within three or four chapters! Woohoo!!!!

Now you're all probably wondering why I'm not actually finishing the story immediately and wasting my time on my blog...truth be told, I kinda don't want to finish it, and I guess that's why I keep giving up on my other stories. It's because I don't want it to end, but I will fight through this stupid urge and I will finish this story so that I can work on the blog that I want to put it up on, as well as the second draft.

I'm actually sad it will soon be over, it just means that another set of characters are going to be happy, while I remain here...with no happy ending, just a bottomless hole that will probably never be filled (NO I'M NOT FAT! I'm talking about emotionally. I'll always have an empty space.)

Well that's it for now, because I just wanted to say I'm almost done...oh and I'm listening to a Doctor Who Spotify playlist...and the song I'm currently listening to is called Song For Ten and I don't know why but the singer kinda reminds me of David Bowie...if you listen to it, please tell me if you hear it too!

Anyway...Biiiiiiyyyyyyyyeeeeeeee!!!!!!

Sudden Inspiration And An Overwhelming Urge

Dear all,

I think I'll start posts like this from now, except of course for the reviews. Anyway, hi, as the title of this post suggests, I was suddenly inspired to do something, and now have this overwhelming urge to finish what I started.

Ok, so for the past few months, I've been playing a lot of games League of Legends (awesome game by the way), Nancy Drew PC games (by Her Interactive) and other random games. But I have been most inspired by Nancy. How many of you readers have ever read the book, I remember I used to collect her books, they were amazing, I always had aspired to be somewhat like Nancy.

I am digressing, where was I, oh yes, well. I was inspired by the Nancy Drew games so much, that I have decided to write a script based on one of her adventures, in the games. Of course, it won't be exactly the same, because, that would be plagiarism, so I'm writing it using completely different characters, and using a different setting. Hopefully it won't be too similar.

So the purpose of this post is to warn you about the lack of any in the future, I will be a bit busy writing this script and playing games, as well as finding a job, going to uni, and rejoining the youth team (hopefully) but when I can, I will, and I'll probably have lots to say.

So for now, it's good bye, and enjoy the older posts here. And as always, please comment to let me know I'm doing a good job, or if you have any criticisms. But peace out, and God Bless. ^^

All Things Must Come To An End

Have you ever felt as if you're close to something, yet you are still so far from it? Well, that has been me for the past couple weeks, I've been revising for my exams, and not been concentrating on making meaningful posts, so apologies for the late update.

Having said that, my exams are at the beginning of June, (June 4th, 11th, and 17th to be exact) and I will be leaving an institute that I have been in for the past 8 years. EIGHT YEARS!!!! That is pretty much near half my lifetime on this earth so far. Its hallowed halls and sprawling greens are what I have been accustomed to for so long, that I cannot believe that I will be off to a different place, it seems surreal.

While, I feel like it is a new beginning, and I can't wait to get there, it is also an end. I am truly sad to leave a beloved and hated place behind, all my friends have left already, since I retook a year, but regardless of it, the place itself is what I will miss the most. I've known it's buildings like the back of my hand, and I doubt I will forget it any time soon, or its people. It is the place I've grown up in. Gone are the restless dreams of a child, or the longings of a dreamer. In it's place, a determination to find the joy at the end of my long and hard wanderings.

I remember, when I was just starting out here, I was the clumsy, eager little girl who didn't exactly know how to make friends. Granted I was a bit dramatic, and as someone once told me "I should have been an actress", but now, that drama has found a safe place to store itself, in the back of my mind and my career path has found its way to a place close to it.

Eight years, it does seem a long time, yet living it myself, it isn't long at all. Yet I feel as if I will be leaving (as quoted from a song I listened to recently) "The safety of the boat". Long have I been in the arms of the Church (The Catholic Church - and yes I am a devout Catholic) and I do feel safe, but now that my dreams will soon be realized, I've never been able to figure out how to be a Catholic in the wider world. There are so many other people and religions bigger and better than me, and I'm scared I may just lose myself along the way.

But I know in the end He will protect me. I just have to trust him.

So here ends a post that marks the end of a child trying to fit a woman's shoe. The next you hear from me will probably be when I find myself dreading my first day at university, or when I have just taken/will take a driving lesson, or even when I'm on holiday. Who knows, but what I do know is that you will be coming back, to read more of my mind, and I hope what you find is not someone who is distant and far from you. I may be in the same country, or town as you when you read it, and I will be able to feel happiness knowing that you reader, have found a mind similar to yours.

Until next time, God bless (which ever God you believe, and if you do not believe, God bless you anyway, that you may find him in your life) and as always do with this post what you will: show it to friends, read it in isolation, whatever you want.

An Inconvenient Holiday

Right, so you know the feeling when you're just lazing about, happy and content, then someone decides to say something that is highly inconvenient to you, and you know it's only due to lack of memory? Well that's me at the moment...

There I was sitting on the couch, full from eating, and content to watch Sherlock Holmes: Game of Shadow (which is an awesome movie by the way), while conversing with my family, and my sister pulls out a booklet of travel places she would like to go to. Suddenly my mother blurts out something that widens my eyes:

"Oh we're going to Spain"

"When?!" I ask, hoping it's in the summer where I have the most time off...

"October!" She says with glee, expecting me to share in it.

I just gaze straight ahead, thinking about it. You may be thinking what's the matter with October, spooks and thrills, so exciting...well I'll tell you now that it is an inconvenient time for me because I WILL BE STARTING MY UNIVERSITY COURSE IN SEPTEMBER!!!!! And university schedules in London are not the same as school schedules, here.

In school you are expected to be in school from the beginning of September to the end of July, with a few holidays interspersed, to spread out the terms. In each term you have a half term which splits the terms again into two....

You might have guessed, that one of them is in October. Correct. The last week of October to be exact. And yes you are granted that this coincides with the holiday...oh but you are not yet close to my ire...

In university you have nothing of the sort...you have semester whereby there are only two...get my drift? All I really have is two holidays (if they don't give me Easter...) that would be Christmas and the very long and very needed Summer holiday.

Guess what? NO HALF TERMS IN THE MIDDLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is what brings my ire...

My parents have planned a holiday with only my old school's schedule in mind, not a university schedule...

So I'm stuck all alone at home while they have fun in the sun in Spain!!!!!!! Where I would gladly help with the language since I'm studying it right now,and to a very full and intellectual extent.

Now you may all be saying "well what's wrong with that? You get the whole house to yourself and you don't have anyone telling you what to do, you can easily have a party!"

Oh yeah don't get me wrong, I will finally learn some sense of independence, but it's the fact that this was planned without me in mind...

Hang on, I will explain...

What I mean is that they both clearly know I'm going to university and that their schedule is different from regular school. Yet they so willing chose to book a holiday without this in mind, clearly forgetting! This leads me to suspect that THEY EXPECT ME TO STILL BE IN A HIGH SCHOOL REGIME!!!!!! They don't take into account at all that I will be in university, they don't even remember that what I've been so labouring for, for the past two years has been for university! This is what ticks me off! They clearly forgot me! Now they amend this problem by saying that I get to learn independence...FOR ONE BLEEDING WEEK!!! I have longed for, and craved for the independence that many of my classmates will get this coming year, and I have been begging them for the past two years to let me go into accommodation, to learn this but they adamantly refuse...NOW THEY SAY THAT I'LL GET THE CHANCE!!!!!! FOR ONE WEEK!!!! THAT'S NOT ENOUGH TIME, THAT'S NOT NEARLY ENOUGH TIME!!!! Whilst I'll be learning all this at the end of October, everyone has already started at the beginning of the year!

This is what ticks me off! The fact that they are now contradicting their reasons, for me to not go into accommodation and to not learn independence for myself, is the very thing that ticks me off!!!

Oh this has happened before, but only verbally, I would ask my mother something and she would deny it, in fact deny my right for asking again, because "her word is the final word" (similar to what my father would do too). Then weeks or even months later, she would suggest the VERY THING I SUGGESTED TO HER NOT THAT LONG AGO!!!!!!!

Well anyway, I will leave it there, and say I'm sorry myself, since I didn't get to post up the answer to the riddle I posted two weeks ago and I have my reasons:

For the first week I was so busy with coursework and my biology case study not to mention my homework, that I didn't have time to go on my blog and post it.

And in the second week I was in Wales, actually in a resort that didn't have any Wi-Fi connections in their lodgings, but in their reception area, plus I was walking about all day everyday so I didn't have time either.

So I'm really sorry for that. And this week has been hectic because I'm still trying to get off Holiday mode and into full studying mode, so I'll post up the answer and the next riddle next week...

Oh and you may find now that my steam has now blown away, that's because I'm taking into great satisfaction that my parents are concerning themselves with our broken toilet flush, which I forgot to tell them when I got out of the shower, too busy singing my way through Eponine's pieces in Les Miserables. A minor revenge to their accident aimed at me...so you know an accident for an accident.

I know it's petty and selfish, but just once I'd like to be. So it's goodnight from me for now.