Hello again everyone! Yes I'm updating. It's been really fun for the last two days. Swimming in the sea, swimming in the pool, having a drink or two. It's a real joy to be here. As for the chapter, I've been reluctant to return to it, but return to it I must. I'll be writing rough drafts for now, but when I do get to it properly, I will be editing it to make it even better.
Sorry for the short post, but that's it for now. I'll speak to all of you later.
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Monday, 23 June 2014
Monday, 9 June 2014
Update Time - Short Somethings
Hello everyone! Sorry I didn't write an update yesterday, because I didn't think it was necessary. Anyway, we're on chapter 18!!!! Two more to go, then it's time for reviews and revising! Yes just two more chapters!
Ugh! I can't believe it, the last chapter was brutal, and I am truly sorry for what I've done. It is a sad chapter and it will be sad, I won't change it because it is necessary, and it's not something that want to change.
Anyway, for now, I'm sorry it's short, I did yoga a few hours ago and I really don't feel like writing now, it's actually 9pm, so I'm just not bothered right now. Tomorrow I'll probably have more to say.
So as always, do with this post what you will and God Bless! ^^
Ugh! I can't believe it, the last chapter was brutal, and I am truly sorry for what I've done. It is a sad chapter and it will be sad, I won't change it because it is necessary, and it's not something that want to change.
Anyway, for now, I'm sorry it's short, I did yoga a few hours ago and I really don't feel like writing now, it's actually 9pm, so I'm just not bothered right now. Tomorrow I'll probably have more to say.
So as always, do with this post what you will and God Bless! ^^
Thursday, 15 May 2014
Something To Think About
I haven't done a rant in a while, well...because I have a diary now to do that, and I like I said before, I wanted to reserve this blog for film reviews, but that's also few and far between. So right now this is a little post just to fill the time.
First I've given up on the script I said I was working on, it's too long and my ideas just trail off without actually ending. So I decided to not finish it, so I could focus on my actual university work, which is slowly coming to an end.
Second, it seems my Labyrinth obsession hasn't, isn't and probably won't actually be a phase, unlike Phantom of the Opera and Wicked...well...at least I have something to do.
Finally my time at university is going well, but nothing has really happened in the relationship department. for one it's because none of my male friends are the type I'd go for...no offence to them, but I just don't see myself being in any sort of relationship with any of them, except being a friend.
Anyway, that's it for now, as always, do with this post what you will. God bless and see you soon. ^^
Saturday, 9 November 2013
Miraculous Interventions
Ok so I know things have been weird lately, I've been more vocal yes, but recently I have been feeling very down, I mean very depressed and desperate lately. But don't worry, I'm not going to become the story of agony, actually I wanted to share a few revelations with you. No I don't mean prophecies (that would have been cool) but more of stories that had enhanced my own faith. Oh and I won't be writing in paragraphs, per say, the paragraphs will be the different stories, so sorry if it looks like bad grammar.
The first story is about a dream I had many years ago, when I was just starting out secondary school (British school system). What happened in the dream? Well...It started with me waiting in a waiting room, with a bunch of other people, I couldn't find my family, but everyone was talking and happy at the same time, and I guessed that they were there somewhere. Suddenly I herded into a line with some other people. When I got to the front (like you would when you're at a queue in a theme park or ordering food at a fast food place) I was faced with a door, and had to way a while, because the person in front of me had just gone in. Suddenly the door opened and I stepped through. On the other side of the door, was a path, on the side of the cliff - like you would have when a road has been carved out on a mountain. Well there wasn't much to it, because only a few feet away, there was a large tree (I can't really remember but I think it was a willow) and under the tree there were two men dressed in white robes. They were just standing there looking at me with smiles on their faces. I smiled back and stood before them. But instead of facing them, I faced the wall to my left. It wasn't high, in fact it stood up to my chest. While I was standing there I suddenly posed, like a waitress, but instead of a tray of food, I held books. Then one of the men standing there suddenly spoke. He said "Vanessa you are now called..." Now I don't even know what he called me because I actually can't remember, it's like I knew what it was in the dream but I couldn't remember it when I woke up. However he continued saying, "This means love and..." again I cannot remember what he said, there have been a few candidates in my mind, intelligence, beauty...But for the life of me I cannot associate them with it. In fact I think the only thing that will spark that memory is if I actually re-enact it out, but I know that won't happen until I die. Well if it does happen, I'll be very glad it did.
The next story is another dream I had, around the same time as the story above. It basically was about the end of the earth. I was sitting at home looking out through the front window, and I looked up at the sky, and a large hole was developing, you could see the stars through it, and I knew something bad was going to happen. While the hole kept growing, it started to rain - from the hole - and everything the rain touched, outside, burned. I ran to my door, to tell the people outside to hurry inside and be safe, but they couldn't hear me, it was like my voice was non-existent. So instead, I ran back inside the house, and gathered my family in front of the window, and told them to pray. When I did, I saw the Earth, in all its entirety in the universe, as if I was no longer part of the story. After a while, it started to change, it's sides stretched. Think of Saturn and it's rings, and imagine the actual planet's sides were stretched to its rings, this is how I saw the Earth. It continued to stay like this for a while, then, like a lava lamp the main body of the earth slowly rose from the ring, and a new Earth was born. This was one of the most surreal experiences I had in all my life, I couldn't understand why I had the dream, or what it meant. But I'm glad I did, because now, looking back at it, it symbolised the change in my world, I was going through major changes during that time, and looking back, I was creating a new world, metaphorically.
Ok so the next story is basically about the Holy Spirit and how it helped me, when I was lost. I was coming back from a birthday party, this happened in like Year 9/10 (again British school system) and my mum and my sister had come to pick me up and we were using the London Overground. It was the first time we'd ever used it, so typically we didn't know what to do. Suddenly two young men came up to us, because they needed to use the ticket machine - they were also getting on the train - they paid for their tickets and in the process showed us how to buy ours. So we did, and when we went to enter the station, I looked around for the two men, because I wanted to thank them for helping us, but I couldn't find them. It was like they had vanished into thin air. Later on my mum told me that she thought they were angels of the Holy Spirit, because on the way over she had experienced something similar, when she was going to pay for parking, she saw a man walking his dog, he told her that she didn't need to pay for the night, and he turned a corner afterwards. She followed him, to thank him, but she couldn't see him, again like he vanished into thin air. I know this can all be explained, like he had probably turned down a different way to where we thought they were going, but in our terms, being a faithful Catholic, these things are acts of God, and his Spirit, and we are blessed to feel and experience them.
Now this last story is the most sobering one I've had, and by sobering, I mean really remember why I'm Catholic. This happened last night/early this morning, if you go by the time. It started with a nightmare I had, and in this nightmare I was with my cousins talking about something, and I looked up. A bloodied girl was on the ceiling, and looking down at us, I screamed and asked it what it wanted, it told me it wanted me to scream until I had blood running out of my orifices, until I died. I woke up straight after this dream really paralysed with fear. I didn't want to go back to sleep for fear I might have the same dream. But I knew I had to go back to sleep. So what I did was because I knew that if I called, He would help me. I prayed, three times, the Lord's prayer, the Hail Mary and the Glory Be. Then I went back to sleep, albeit more fitful than the last. In this dream, I was looking for the author of a book, with my aunt (we think of her more as a cousin than an aunt). When we found this author we asked her a few questions about a book we had read, and she started to quote the bible, and talk about Jesus, then suddenly she said, "I have always loved you and will always love you". Then suddenly all I could see was this woman, she was looking straight at me, as in my soul, and as clear as day she said, "This body is not yours. Leave." That was when I woke up. I could feel my body and everything around me, but I couldn't move. I was literally paralysed, because I could feel the crushing weight of something on me, not exactly on me, but inside of me, I felt crushed, I couldn't function, then I remembered her last words and like a mantra I kept saying in my head, well I think I kept saying it, I actually didn't really say it. And slowly the weight was starting to lift, so I actually said the words, "This body is not yours, leave" and suddenly I was free, I felt so relieved, and joyful that I started to cry. After a while, I did pray the rosary, the Glorious Mysteries. I'll never forget this experience, it was one of the most scariest I've ever had, and one of the most uplifting, because for the past few weeks I had been feeling lonely and depressed, and it felt like I couldn't find a way to feel happy about anything. But this incident, I knew, no matter how lonely I got, I would always have God to help me.
So yes, all these things really did happen, and I know there may be scientific explanations, but I don't really want to hear them, because in my opinion they helped me remember my faith, and yes they may be controversial, but I'd like them to inspire people, not crush their dreams. I know I sound like a preacher, but I'm not, I'm just a young girl trying to find my purpose in life, and for now, this is all I can do, tell you of what I've experienced and hope you can learn from them. Not all things are bad, if you do the best you can to live in the light, you will see the wonders of God, whether it's the Christian God you worship, the Islamic, the Jewish, or any other religion, no matter what you believe in, there is always one Almighty God and He/She is one and the same. There should really be no barriers. It's just culture and men that tell us what to believe. To quote the movie Angels & Demons, "religion is flawed, because all men are flawed."
The first story is about a dream I had many years ago, when I was just starting out secondary school (British school system). What happened in the dream? Well...It started with me waiting in a waiting room, with a bunch of other people, I couldn't find my family, but everyone was talking and happy at the same time, and I guessed that they were there somewhere. Suddenly I herded into a line with some other people. When I got to the front (like you would when you're at a queue in a theme park or ordering food at a fast food place) I was faced with a door, and had to way a while, because the person in front of me had just gone in. Suddenly the door opened and I stepped through. On the other side of the door, was a path, on the side of the cliff - like you would have when a road has been carved out on a mountain. Well there wasn't much to it, because only a few feet away, there was a large tree (I can't really remember but I think it was a willow) and under the tree there were two men dressed in white robes. They were just standing there looking at me with smiles on their faces. I smiled back and stood before them. But instead of facing them, I faced the wall to my left. It wasn't high, in fact it stood up to my chest. While I was standing there I suddenly posed, like a waitress, but instead of a tray of food, I held books. Then one of the men standing there suddenly spoke. He said "Vanessa you are now called..." Now I don't even know what he called me because I actually can't remember, it's like I knew what it was in the dream but I couldn't remember it when I woke up. However he continued saying, "This means love and..." again I cannot remember what he said, there have been a few candidates in my mind, intelligence, beauty...But for the life of me I cannot associate them with it. In fact I think the only thing that will spark that memory is if I actually re-enact it out, but I know that won't happen until I die. Well if it does happen, I'll be very glad it did.
The next story is another dream I had, around the same time as the story above. It basically was about the end of the earth. I was sitting at home looking out through the front window, and I looked up at the sky, and a large hole was developing, you could see the stars through it, and I knew something bad was going to happen. While the hole kept growing, it started to rain - from the hole - and everything the rain touched, outside, burned. I ran to my door, to tell the people outside to hurry inside and be safe, but they couldn't hear me, it was like my voice was non-existent. So instead, I ran back inside the house, and gathered my family in front of the window, and told them to pray. When I did, I saw the Earth, in all its entirety in the universe, as if I was no longer part of the story. After a while, it started to change, it's sides stretched. Think of Saturn and it's rings, and imagine the actual planet's sides were stretched to its rings, this is how I saw the Earth. It continued to stay like this for a while, then, like a lava lamp the main body of the earth slowly rose from the ring, and a new Earth was born. This was one of the most surreal experiences I had in all my life, I couldn't understand why I had the dream, or what it meant. But I'm glad I did, because now, looking back at it, it symbolised the change in my world, I was going through major changes during that time, and looking back, I was creating a new world, metaphorically.
Ok so the next story is basically about the Holy Spirit and how it helped me, when I was lost. I was coming back from a birthday party, this happened in like Year 9/10 (again British school system) and my mum and my sister had come to pick me up and we were using the London Overground. It was the first time we'd ever used it, so typically we didn't know what to do. Suddenly two young men came up to us, because they needed to use the ticket machine - they were also getting on the train - they paid for their tickets and in the process showed us how to buy ours. So we did, and when we went to enter the station, I looked around for the two men, because I wanted to thank them for helping us, but I couldn't find them. It was like they had vanished into thin air. Later on my mum told me that she thought they were angels of the Holy Spirit, because on the way over she had experienced something similar, when she was going to pay for parking, she saw a man walking his dog, he told her that she didn't need to pay for the night, and he turned a corner afterwards. She followed him, to thank him, but she couldn't see him, again like he vanished into thin air. I know this can all be explained, like he had probably turned down a different way to where we thought they were going, but in our terms, being a faithful Catholic, these things are acts of God, and his Spirit, and we are blessed to feel and experience them.
Now this last story is the most sobering one I've had, and by sobering, I mean really remember why I'm Catholic. This happened last night/early this morning, if you go by the time. It started with a nightmare I had, and in this nightmare I was with my cousins talking about something, and I looked up. A bloodied girl was on the ceiling, and looking down at us, I screamed and asked it what it wanted, it told me it wanted me to scream until I had blood running out of my orifices, until I died. I woke up straight after this dream really paralysed with fear. I didn't want to go back to sleep for fear I might have the same dream. But I knew I had to go back to sleep. So what I did was because I knew that if I called, He would help me. I prayed, three times, the Lord's prayer, the Hail Mary and the Glory Be. Then I went back to sleep, albeit more fitful than the last. In this dream, I was looking for the author of a book, with my aunt (we think of her more as a cousin than an aunt). When we found this author we asked her a few questions about a book we had read, and she started to quote the bible, and talk about Jesus, then suddenly she said, "I have always loved you and will always love you". Then suddenly all I could see was this woman, she was looking straight at me, as in my soul, and as clear as day she said, "This body is not yours. Leave." That was when I woke up. I could feel my body and everything around me, but I couldn't move. I was literally paralysed, because I could feel the crushing weight of something on me, not exactly on me, but inside of me, I felt crushed, I couldn't function, then I remembered her last words and like a mantra I kept saying in my head, well I think I kept saying it, I actually didn't really say it. And slowly the weight was starting to lift, so I actually said the words, "This body is not yours, leave" and suddenly I was free, I felt so relieved, and joyful that I started to cry. After a while, I did pray the rosary, the Glorious Mysteries. I'll never forget this experience, it was one of the most scariest I've ever had, and one of the most uplifting, because for the past few weeks I had been feeling lonely and depressed, and it felt like I couldn't find a way to feel happy about anything. But this incident, I knew, no matter how lonely I got, I would always have God to help me.
So yes, all these things really did happen, and I know there may be scientific explanations, but I don't really want to hear them, because in my opinion they helped me remember my faith, and yes they may be controversial, but I'd like them to inspire people, not crush their dreams. I know I sound like a preacher, but I'm not, I'm just a young girl trying to find my purpose in life, and for now, this is all I can do, tell you of what I've experienced and hope you can learn from them. Not all things are bad, if you do the best you can to live in the light, you will see the wonders of God, whether it's the Christian God you worship, the Islamic, the Jewish, or any other religion, no matter what you believe in, there is always one Almighty God and He/She is one and the same. There should really be no barriers. It's just culture and men that tell us what to believe. To quote the movie Angels & Demons, "religion is flawed, because all men are flawed."
Friday, 28 June 2013
Delayed Postings and Knitting Mayhem
Ok, so I'm really sorry guys, things have been, well not quite hectic but they have been busy. I've recently given in my beloved iPad, back to school, and I no longer go to school...Now I'm pretty much...free...
I know it's something to be happy about, but lately that freedom has become somewhat busy...and I don't mean by sitting around doing nothing all day, you see, when I finished with all my exams and whatnots, I took up crochet and cross-stitch again, and that has been taking up my time. I would have posted sooner, but that delayed me.
I am also quite late in finishing the next chapter in the story on my other blog, theshadowsdescent.blogspot.co.uk/ I've laid out the foundations of it, and I do know what I want to write, but it just seems like right now I actually have no time for the computer. Literally! So for now please put up with the fact that I am not writing very much on this blog, but I promise when all my projects are done I will get back to writing.
These projects are not so easy to finish, see, I'm crocheting a present for my mum on her birthday this year, and a cardigan for myself. I'm also cross-stitching a piece for my mum, because she's been nagging for the past three years for me to finish it. The only reason it took three years is because of my A-levels, so now I have to finish it. Not only that I also have to find work, suggested by my mum, although, we are going on holiday in the next two months, I'm not sure if they're really going to let me get one. But oh well. At least I tried.
Anyway, sorry it's short and not very in your face, but I seriously need to get back to "work" so like always, do with this post as you will, and God bless. ^^
I know it's something to be happy about, but lately that freedom has become somewhat busy...and I don't mean by sitting around doing nothing all day, you see, when I finished with all my exams and whatnots, I took up crochet and cross-stitch again, and that has been taking up my time. I would have posted sooner, but that delayed me.
I am also quite late in finishing the next chapter in the story on my other blog, theshadowsdescent.blogspot.co.uk/ I've laid out the foundations of it, and I do know what I want to write, but it just seems like right now I actually have no time for the computer. Literally! So for now please put up with the fact that I am not writing very much on this blog, but I promise when all my projects are done I will get back to writing.
These projects are not so easy to finish, see, I'm crocheting a present for my mum on her birthday this year, and a cardigan for myself. I'm also cross-stitching a piece for my mum, because she's been nagging for the past three years for me to finish it. The only reason it took three years is because of my A-levels, so now I have to finish it. Not only that I also have to find work, suggested by my mum, although, we are going on holiday in the next two months, I'm not sure if they're really going to let me get one. But oh well. At least I tried.
Anyway, sorry it's short and not very in your face, but I seriously need to get back to "work" so like always, do with this post as you will, and God bless. ^^
Tuesday, 2 April 2013
Riddle 10 - The Cheese!
Here's last week's riddle guys!
That is all!The picture this time, is mine, but it was made in a time when I didn't know what to do with myself, so I decided to make up these sorts of pictures. There is no link on it, because it is fully mine! It's actually my Twitter background. ^^
It is a part of us,
That we cannot see,
Without it's presence,
We cannot be.
To have and lost,
Is not to not have at all,
It makes us blind,
But with it we stand tall.
So who am I,
I cannot say,
But you can show me,
Some other way...
Sorry it's cheesy, I couldn't think of anything else.
But did you get the answer?
It was...
Heart
So there really wasn't a reason for this, but I guess, it was something right? Anyway, this next one will probably be better.
It is made,
It is given,
It is a bond,
That can't be broken,
To break it,
Means unhappiness,
To keep it,
Is utter bliss.
Again it's a bit cheese! Oh well...
Again answers can be posted as a comment so please...COMMENT!!!!
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