A Little Bit Of Philosophy

So, update time. I'm currently watching The Lord of the Rings (the first two movies, since the last will be aired late tonight), and reading a book I had won in a raffle, a few years ago. It's called Rediscovering Catholicism, by Matthew Kelly (2002). As I'm watching, and typing this, it has come to my attention that these things have given me inspiration to write! Remember, Tolkien, the original author of the books, was a Catholic, and a philosophical thinker, and this faith has grabbed the attention of the world. I hope to do that, even though I know it will be a very hard thing to do.

I hope with my stories, the world can be seen in different eyes. You see, whilst my story is fantasy, and while it doesn't point directly back to God or the Christian faith, I hope that if you read my story, and find inspiration to believe in God, or whatever higher power best suits you. I know it's not something you'll all agree with, especially those who are rather cynical atheists, but I know that it's not something I can force you to do. I'm not going to argue a point, because it would be useless against your will. However, know this, it is useless to force attention upon someone who does not wish it. It is useless to force your belief on others. Yes argue your point, debate your belief, but do not force someone to convert. It was what destroyed cultures of the past, it is what is currently destroying relationships between people. It is what is destroying today's culture and society. Think of the uprisings today, some are peaceful protests that ask for freedom of those oppressed, but others, many others, are of greed and fuelled by an anger that should never have walked this Earth.

Ok, so that's a bit philosophical, but it is my need for balance that spurns me to write it. As for my story, I have begun to write again, and the draft will be going slowly, but hopefully I can bring it here by the end of this summer.

I know it's short, and I know it can be argued against but this is my belief. So as always, do what you will with this post, and I'll see you next time. God Bless ^^

A River Flowing

There is a reason to everything. It is because things happen, and things don't happen that others do. For example, a phone won't ring unless someone decides to call and acts it out. Everything has a cause. This post would not happen if I didn't want to post. It's a funny thing when you think about it. If we didn't do anything, nothing would be done. Something has to happen for it to be done.

This year is my last year in secondary school. It's strange just thinking about it. I didn't think that it would ever happen, and yet it is. What I must do now, is to think of the future: what is to come, yet I must live in the present. How can I do that? It is said, "Things are easier said than done." How much of this is true? What do I want? I want to know what will happen, I want to know everything that could help me. I usually go in life, without thinking, and end up either overjoyed, or totally embarrassed. Most of the time it's the latter. I can't handle that, that's why everything must be known, understood. That's why, this year is both a joy to me, and a curse. I want to leave the life I have known, but I don't want to embarrass myself at the same time.

Most of the time I would stay in a corner, my comfort, my home. But it isn't enough for me to do that. If I want to do something, I have to get out. But most of the time I'm scared to. Why? The embarrassment, the humiliation! I can't handle it, and yet I must.

Life truly is like a river flowing. We are the rocks that follow it. We must. We have no choice. We bump each other, we climb each other. We do everything we can to reach that ocean at the end. When we do what then? We look back? We forget? We're relieved that we have finally reached our rest? No one can say. But if I do know one thing, it is this:

We cannot spend our lives comforting our own wounds, because others have bumped us, because others have climbed over us to get to that ocean, we have to move on like they do. And it is up to us to keep our rock strong. If we don't we would end up a grain, in that ocean, not knowing how we ever turned into it. We must keep our boulder-like foundation, we must keep strong. We must be that rock, not just to ourselves, but to others as well. We must push them forward, we must guide them along that river, to join us at the end, in the ocean. We must fall, we must climb. That is all we must do, until we reach that ocean. I hope when we do though, we can look back, we can see the journey we've taken not just on our own, but the journey we've taken with others. We can look back at the marks we've made in the bank. We can look back at the marks we've made on each other. We can finally be at rest, knowing our mark was made in that river, our world.