Stressing Out And Spiritual Reflections

Right well, first off, I'm currently in the middle of reviewing my fourth draft for my story, in which the first five chapters are all ready and just need a few tweaking. It'll be up soon! I promise! Second, it's October (the perfect time for mystical, magical things to happen - although it's highly impossible for things to happen to me), and the LEAGUE OF LEGENDS WORLD CHAMPIONSHIP tournament is playing throughout the weekend, so get ready for LEAGUE OF LEGENDS SPAMS!!!!  Third I'll be getting a job soon! Actually it's my sister's old job, so I know what sort of things she goes through...most of the time, so expect rants on customers (*secret evil chuckle*). And finally, MY LAST YEAR AT UNIVERSITY IS ALREADY UNDERWAY!!!!!

Ok, so let's start with the story. So over the last few months, I've actually gone into detail about the background of this strange world. In this first novel (Which is taking forever to complete, thanks to both my own obsessive need for sense and the fact that I like it to be perfect) we're walking in the north of the concerned world (I've even drawn a rough map!) and I'm actually creating floor plans of the palaces and homes that my characters step into. It's going to take a while to finish, but at least I know where they're going to go. Anyway, so the main thing I want to speak about for this is that I can actually compare myself to my characters...well at least the main heroines. Basically...if you haven't already guessed, there are Seven...sort of...godlike characters. Basically think of the archangels like Michael, Gabriel, etc, but they're magical. They're not warriors but more like peacekeepers.

Of course, many people think that "peacekeepers" are passive people, they tend to want everyone to love each other, and good to reign and blah, blah, blah. The Great Seven, as they're called, aren't exactly like that. I mean sure they try to stop anyone from fighting, but they know it's never going to happen, since free will means that selfish acts have to happen. However, they will do their best to stop these selfish acts for spiralling out of control. So when their "brothers" decide to take over and force people to do the things they want, they decide to fight back. And when they do get things back on track they just watch over the people that walk their worlds. Oh and because I'm trying to keep things as "scientifically" plausible as possible (like that's not a tongue twister) their worlds, like Earth, will have their natural disasters, which these beings control, if only to test their people and their faith in them. So yeah, that's my definition of "peacekeepers". The Great Seven obviously need to keep the balance. If there is no act of selfishness or evil, then no one will really know what good is. So that's what The Great Seven do to ensure their subjects remember why they try to strive for goodness.

So yeah, that's how they are, roughly, I will be putting up the full detailed background information of the novel(s) up prior to the first novel, so that you guys get a taste of what's going on before you actually read it/them. Anyway, that's what the Great Seven are, and what they do. As for the reason why I compare myself to them, it's because I've realised that I've based them on the seven virtues. They're basically the embodiments of each virtue:

• Earth - Kindness
• Water - Diligence
• Fire - Patience
• Air - Temperance
• Light - Charity
• Night - Chastity
• Fate/Destiny - Humility

I also based their trials on the Seven Gifts of the Holy Spirit (which are explained by the Catechism of the Catholic Church):

• Earth - Knowledge
• Water - Piety
• Fire - Courage
• Air - Counsel (Right Judgement)
• Light - Understanding
• Night - Fear of God (Wonder/Awe)
• Fate/Destiny - Wisdom

Again, I'll explain the reasons for this in the background when I upload it later. As for now, you guys can debate about it amongst yourselves. So yeah, as I was researching about all this, I started comparing my own experiences and reactions to the world to these virtues and gifts, and I've noticed, I basically dip into each one, but I don't fully associate with any of them. It's rather disturbing how little I can associate with them, and I've found myself trying to better myself so that I can actually say, I'm not a bad person. I've realised, as I ponder what I need to do to be better, that it's very easy to fall into the trap of being a "bad" person. I mean sometimes, as I've probably already said, I can literally feel how fragile my body is, like I know that if one wrong moment of exposure could easily destroy my body. It's the same here with my spirituality. I can feel the knife's edge I'm balancing on. I could easily tip one way or the other, and it's rather scary how think this ledge is. Is it just me or does anyone else feel like that too? So yeah, that's the "Spiritual Reflections" part of this post (which I realise now how long it will be).

Now on to the next parts!

Warning! LEAGUE OF LEGENDS SPAM ABOUT TO START! Warning!

As I've said, the League of Legends World Championships are currently on and were' currently into our second week of the Group Stages!!! OMG! I REALLY AM LOVING THIS! I know this championship is going to be oh so woefully one sided, but hey, these people are veterans and they are good at what they do. So what's going on so far? Basically, two groups (out of the four) have two clear winners. First off, in Group A, both Flash Wolves and KOO Tigers have qualified for the Quarterfinals (here in London!) with 4-2 each. In Group C SKT T1 are the clearcut winners with 6-0, with EDG (Edward Gaming) running up at 4-2 (So far). Of course the other two groups can be easily predicted.

Right now, my predictions are, for Group D (who'll be playing tomorrow), Origen and KT Rolster will be qualifying for the Quarterfinals, and for Group B, Cloud 9 and either Invictus Gaming or Fnatic will be their qualifiers. So those are my predictions, but they can change throughout the course of the next two days, since their matches are on during the weekend. If you want to see the progress of my mentality then follow me on Twitter: Vanessa Rocha. 

Anyway, preceding the Worlds Championship...this has been long in the making, but as you all know I play League of Legends with a few of my film production buddies. Well, over the summer we've decided to actually set up a YouTube channel of our own (yes there are many who've already established their names in gaming and whatnots) but this channel will be very different. Yes we'll have VODS of our games and gameplay, but we're not going to put our film production skills to waste. We're also going to add actual short films and series (that have been made) with our filming expertise, but that's going to be way into the future, when we have a solid idea for our channel.

So yes, I have been a busy girl over the summer. THANK YOU DEPRESSION! As you all know I've had my major ups and downs during the summer, so in my need to not get so down, I've kept myself busy! It's something to help me cope. I acknowledge how down I can get, but I don't want it to ruin my life so I keep busy!

But yes. We'll be uploading our first videos soon, so look out for the new content. I'll be posting them up on my "official" website and here soon. SO WATCH OUT!!!

Back to our regular scheduled programming...

Alright so that's done, let's talk about this new job. So basically for a long time I've been trying to get a job, albeit half-heartedly, because I'm already in university, and in my last year, so I really need to start taking responsibility. Originally I was going to try to find something related to media or film, but because most of that need experience, which I woefully lack, I've resorted into trying to find whatever  job I can get. But thankfully, my sister has helped me get my foot in the door. So, some perspective. She currently works at Ryman (a stationary store here in London) and because she's gotten tired of her work, plus she's going back to uni (and her course is a bitch!), she's quitting. But because the store she works for is woefully understaffed, she's suggested me as her replacement. So...I'VE GOT A JOB!!! Granted I have to go in for an interview early tomorrow, but it's just formality because her manager really does need people to help out, so I'm guaranteed to get the job!

And finally, for the main part of this post...I am in my last year of university, it started around three weeks ago...AND I'M ALREADY FREAKING OUT!!!! I have so many assignments to complete! Ok, so here's what I have to do:

• A Script Analysis
• A Treatment for said analysis
• A Storyboard
• A Storyboard Edit (with Voiceover, SFX and Music)
• A PowerPoint Presentation about a social issue surround film representation
• A Treatment and 15 pages for my own 50minute script

And for some of them I will need to include a critical analysis...just to show my own reflection on what I did...I CAN'T DO THIS!!!

First off, the first four are for one module...You know how when you think film production, you immediately turn to "director"...well that was me before I took up this degree. I thought that maybe, if I was ambitious enough, I'd be able to call myself a director...but I am so naive! That path is definitely not for me, and this module proves it!!! I can not be a director, because I don't like the idea of having that power and responsibility! It's too much work for me! I know there are many women out there who think "No you can do this! We are women, make us proud!"...Yeah, I'm all for that...But my own personality is not the type that will withstand that pressure!

The PowerPoint Presentation is another thing I hate! I really hate standing in front of an audience and speaking! I hate it! I hate it with a passion!!! I had hoped that I wouldn't have to do it, but no! IT'S AN ACTUAL ASSIGNMENT!!!! Just kill me now!

As for the last one, I'm good with that, I actually don't mind. I'm already almost done with the treatment, and I'll be soon starting on the 15 pages. I'm glad I chose this option of the Project module. That, I'm happy about. But still, it's a lot of pressure! I've got a lot of writing, rehearsing, and socialising I need to do. I mean I have like 3 more weeks before things start to need to be handed in and it's so stressful!!! I really need to buckle down and work soon. It's going to be a lot of work!!! I HATE THIS SEMESTER!!!! SOMEONE KILL ME! ><

Anyway, that's it (sorry for the long post) and I'll see you all next time. As always, do with this post what you will! This is FeatherCharm, signing out! God Bless!

Essay Mayhem and Inspirations Needed

Hello Everyone,

So more than a week has gone by, and I’m sitting here writing a post. Basically, this week has been dedicated to my university assignments, which I can gladly say is finished! Now I can focus on my novel (I’ll speak about that later)…yes I will focus on that story…ok fine, what is it guys? What do you need?

Seriously, why do I do this to myself, I torment myself over helping others that I don’t concentrate on the one thing I want to concentrate on…It’s not their fault (don’t worry, if you’re one of the guys I’ve helped, I’m not blaming you) it’s mine. I CAN’T HELP IT!!!! I want to…no have to…help people! It’s built into my nature! Even now, I’m helping my friends as I’m writing this.

First it was simply discussing the content of the essay, now I’m proofreading for one of them…I got a B in my English GCSE (Exam board for those of you who aren’t from the UK)…so…why are you depending on me? Of course, it doesn’t matter, because I’m pretty much game for anything.

Ugh…oh the problems of an introvert…Anyway, so back to what I was saying…Inspiration…yes, I am running out of steam people! I mean I had the steam, but then I lost it when I finished the last chapter…now I’m on chapter 8 and I have nothing for it! I hate filler chapters, there’s pretty much nothing you can write for it! Of course, I have written notes as a guideline, but I highly doubt I’m actually going to use them. Oh well, we’ll have to see what happens…I will be updating you when I reach chapter 9, but that’s probably going to take a while, because…again…I will be procrastinating, since I have another post I want to write and I will probably write that, just to put off writing the novel. I need to stop procrastinating.

So a little bit more hints as to what I’m writing: well, I’ve changed the prologue somewhat, because the previous one was not that great, and to be honest, the entire story needed a revamp. Oh! I’ve decided, I’ll be adding snippets of the story here…not major snippets, but little bits of the story just to show you how this story is going to look like. So here’s the first one:

Unbeknownst to her, a celestial figure stepped behind her, watching her intently. Her bare feet peeked out from the lavender stars of her gown, and raven locks billowed in unseen winds. Feeling a presence behind her, the woman turned to face the figure, both in awe and in fear. The gentle rainbow eyes held a life aeons.

“You are certain?” her voice was as smooth as silk, and yet whispered through the woman’s soul. A single nod was her only reply, as she held out the baby.

This little snippet is from the prologue. If you want to be a reviewer, drop me a comment, and let me know if you’d like to read a fantasy novel, that will need a few tweaks. Oh and one more thing: if you want to know what the story is about, head over to my blogger, the summary is there (Buckle Down And Work)…although I will make a better one, once I’ve finished the last draft.

So that’s it for now. Time to return to procrastinating, and helping my friends. As always, do with this post what you will, and I’ll see you soon. God Bless!

A Little Bit Of Philosophy

So, update time. I'm currently watching The Lord of the Rings (the first two movies, since the last will be aired late tonight), and reading a book I had won in a raffle, a few years ago. It's called Rediscovering Catholicism, by Matthew Kelly (2002). As I'm watching, and typing this, it has come to my attention that these things have given me inspiration to write! Remember, Tolkien, the original author of the books, was a Catholic, and a philosophical thinker, and this faith has grabbed the attention of the world. I hope to do that, even though I know it will be a very hard thing to do.

I hope with my stories, the world can be seen in different eyes. You see, whilst my story is fantasy, and while it doesn't point directly back to God or the Christian faith, I hope that if you read my story, and find inspiration to believe in God, or whatever higher power best suits you. I know it's not something you'll all agree with, especially those who are rather cynical atheists, but I know that it's not something I can force you to do. I'm not going to argue a point, because it would be useless against your will. However, know this, it is useless to force attention upon someone who does not wish it. It is useless to force your belief on others. Yes argue your point, debate your belief, but do not force someone to convert. It was what destroyed cultures of the past, it is what is currently destroying relationships between people. It is what is destroying today's culture and society. Think of the uprisings today, some are peaceful protests that ask for freedom of those oppressed, but others, many others, are of greed and fuelled by an anger that should never have walked this Earth.

Ok, so that's a bit philosophical, but it is my need for balance that spurns me to write it. As for my story, I have begun to write again, and the draft will be going slowly, but hopefully I can bring it here by the end of this summer.

I know it's short, and I know it can be argued against but this is my belief. So as always, do what you will with this post, and I'll see you next time. God Bless ^^

Overwhelming Inspiration

Ok, so I have to put this out there:

I was browsing through fantasy pictures and the like, and I came across one particular picture that just stole my breath away.

So how did I find it? Well, I was searching for a "warrior princess" look for the story, which you'll understand once I put this novel out there (if ever!), and most of the ones I saw were all Asian looking (because  fantasy warrior princesses are Asian - sure), and yes this one is Asian too, but I swear someone read my mind, and only now am I seeing this!

Ok. In my story, there's a celestial being who kinda helps with everything, and I have a very clear picture of who she is and what she looks like, and when I saw this picture, I thought it was her!

Ladies and gentlemen, may I introduce to you Tara, the eldest of the Great Seven, Guardian of Fate and Queen of the Universe.

I swear she is exactly who Tara is. She is defender of life, she is the wisest of all beings in the universe of the Great Seven!

So ranting over, I'll see you next time. Oh and as a side note, the image is not mine, I found it on google, and the link to its origin is on the picture (so click the picture and look at all the great fantasy art there!)

As always do with this post what you will, and I'll see you soon. God Bless! ^^

Draft Two Complete!

Update Time:

Ok so you all know I've been working on draft two of The Great Seven: Earth and now I've finally completed it. There will be a draft three and four, just so I can whittle down the grammar, spelling and punctuation mistakes, not to mention, making the story easier to read. 

Now, I've given you a quick summary of the story (which I will finalise when I do upload this story), and a view of my main character, so for this update I'll give you an idea of what my heroine's love interest looks like:

This picture isn't the one I based him on, but it's very close. So with this image, imagine brighter hair (platinum - like Legolas' father in LOTR) and instead of green, it's blue...although I didn't think of the highlights...I might add that to the third/fourth draft.

Now that I've finished this draft, I'm trying to get my reviewers to read my story as soon as possible, but I know they won't finish it as soon as possible, but here's hoping. If you, who're reading my blog out there, want to read this rough story, please message me/comment on here, and let me know if you'd like to read a fantasy novel (beware there is mature content scattered about in this story), and help make the grammar, spelling and punctuation better. Thanks!

So as always, do with this post what you will and God Bless! ^^

Slowly But Surely

Hello everyone!!! It's me (not like anyone actually knows who I am)...just a small update, because I'm really bored and, although I'm in my lecture, I'm not really paying attention, since I'm at the back...

Anyway, you should all be happy to know, that I'm nearing the end of my second draft, and the next secret I will tell you is the name of my main character!!! I can't wait! So far I'm on chapter 22, and that is halfway complete, and I'm really really sorry about this chapter (actually I'm sorry about the ending of this book, it's really cruel)...I do have a dark side so that just...yeah...

So very soon, I will be working on the third draft...if my reviewers can get to me soon...and the final draft will be up by Christmas or New Year (hopefully). I actually can't wait! It's going to be so good! You know initially I had thought it would be easy to write this...but any writer knows...IT IS TOO DAMN HARD! Ideas flow in and out, and I just can't get the right train to finish this...

On another note...When I started this new story I did say I was going to use names from the old story (like Arion, Nyx and whatnots) but I realised, if I want the names to mean something in this story, it has to be related to what I want...I can't just make up the meaning, when there are already many. However, I may use some of the old names for the other stories, like for Dark (I think, especially for Dark, because I'm going to be using a certain theme for that one).

Moving on...I know I'm talking in bits right now, but I'm switching from listening to the lecture and writing this...it's annoying! I want to sleep, play League of Legends and work on my story!!!! SOMEONE GET ME OUT OF HERE!

Speaking of League of Legends...WHO'S READY FOR THE FINALS!!!!! I can't wait! I don't know who I want to win...although I'm more for Samsung White...who do you root for? Anyway...I actually can't wait, and I bet there will be a Pentakill in one of these games, both teams are so AWESOM!!!!!!!!

So, yes, that's it, and do with this what you want, because I don't really care anymore (except copying, I hate copiers!).

Delayed Timings

Hello lovely people...I don't know why...Anyway, there will be a rely in uploading the story. Don't worry I haven't given up on it, it's just taking a while to finish, since university has already started. I'm still editing the second draft. I may be able to finish it before December, and then I will be able to work on the third and final draft. For now, please be patient.

Ok so here's a little something about the inspiration of this book: I've used music, films and other stories as a basis for it. As before I will be posting on a different page, what the inspirations are, and I will be making a link to the blog for the story, once it's up and running.

In terms of the characters I've used many images from DeviantArt and other fantasy based wallpapers, pictures and animations. I will be writing another book (the next book in the series) after I've finished with this story. The next element will be Water, and well...I've already found the plot for it.

So, that's it for now, please, do with this post what you will, except copy it. Thank you! ^^

Boredom And Too Much Time To Spare

So update on the story? I'm on chapter 18, but I'm still halfway through the story (or maybe two thirds of the way through...not sure yet). The fact that I'm writing this at 2 in the afternoon isn't because I'm at home working on my novel, far from it. I'm still at university, waiting for my seminar or workshop to begin in an hour. Throughout the first 2 hours of this 5 hour break I managed to finish chapter 17, after which I played on my iPad for a bit (since I am a game addict) and then for an hour after that I went to the music rooms to practice what little of the piano I know.

Obviously I've now given that up (since all the people practicing with me are advanced pianists or musicians that I feel very out of place there), and have taken to my laptop. I haven't a clue what to write for chapter 18, but hopefully as this hour progresses I will.

So what have I learned over the last week and two days? Well, I started my second year positively, I've found a job (that doesn't pay yet) and I've made a lot of progress in my novel. Overall, it has been great. Now...routine starts to kick in and I almost regret applying for my new job, but I know it will be worth it in the end. So what do I do? I am a researcher, and production assistant for a video and audio production company, and I am quite nervous, because I start tomorrow. Hopefully the homework I completed for it was sufficient enough. Who know's...

Now, I think I'll try to get some more of the novel done, because I know it's not going to write itself (well physically, the idea and the story is there, but not the words).

So signing off now, I'll see you all later. ^^

Boring Lectures and Attention Deficit

Well hello bloggers! It's me again. What you should know...I'm writing this during my lecture. You see, my lecturer is rambling on about the module study guide, which he has done for the last hour, and so...my attention has been on and off, because...well...he's done something like this in the last year. We know the drill...ENOUGH!

At least right now we're having a break, so I can write this...although it is a 6 minute break, so I highly doubt it's going to be a very long post. Ok, what have I been doing all week? Basically getting back into the flow of things. On Monday, I had my first practical lesson...which was actually quite fun. On Tuesday I learned a little bit more about script writing, and actually had fun; it was basically psychology - I LOVED IT! Wednesday was pretty much a break, and I went shopping for jeans and shoes, which my parents paid for (THANK YOU!). Thursday, I had a job interview, and I think I got it, I mean they are going to show me how to do show notes for their last episode (not quite sure what a show note is, but I'm sure I'll figure it out.) Today, I have my theory lessons, and I'll be at uni for the next four hours. Also I'll be finding out what this hush hush project is (something a friend had asked me to help out with).

Ok so...now what's going on? Well, I'm still at break and some of my classmates are watching videos that I don't think I'll actually enjoy (since they're ridiculous shorts, stuff things from Vine I think). As for the story, I'm on Chapter 14 and I'm at the point where there is going to be major changes for my main character. Soon I'll be able to re-edit it and actually refine it more. I think after the third draft, it will come up on a new blog. So please wait for it. Thanks. ^^

Well, this is me, signing out. See ya! ^^

The Battle Is Over!!!!

I have officially completed DRAFT ONE of this new story, and I am happy to announce the title of this story!

Over the course of the month I have torn many a hair out, ripped many a page, and had many fits of rage and self-loathing in which I almost flung my laptop to the wall. I have suffered what I believe is chronic slouching, because of the many days I've spent, bent over this stupid laptop! Luckily I have discovered the luxury of cushions, against the hard back of a dining chair, so I'm not suffering as much, but still...chronic slouch!

Ugh! It is so good to know I no longer have to sit day and night at this laptop, finishing this story. Soon it will be up and in the public on a new blog. Yes I will be making a new blog to showcase this new story. The colour scheme will make sense if you read the story. As I said before I will be posting latest chapter to first because it makes more sense to read it that way.

Ok so the name of this mysterious story...it is...

The Great Seven: Earth

Yes that's right you see it! That is the name. I will not write up the summary, although I think you can guess it, but the reason why I'm not even going to attempt to write the summary, is because I don't think I can write one without spoiling it. I will write one though, once I finish the second draft. So wait out for that. 

For now here are the pictures that inspired my main character, I did not make them, nor did I commission them, I found it on the internet, and well it's better because I don't have to put my picture up to show what she looks like (and as always the links are on the picture:

So yes, I found them on Deviant Art. Anyway, like everything else on this blog, do what you want (except copy)! BYE!!!!!

The End Of An Era

I think I've named a previous post this...oh well, never mind! Let's just say it's number two...Anyway. I am almost done with this first story!!! Yes I know I've only recently said I'm on chapter 15, but now I'm almost done with 16 and I'll have you know that I may finish the story within three or four chapters! Woohoo!!!!

Now you're all probably wondering why I'm not actually finishing the story immediately and wasting my time on my blog...truth be told, I kinda don't want to finish it, and I guess that's why I keep giving up on my other stories. It's because I don't want it to end, but I will fight through this stupid urge and I will finish this story so that I can work on the blog that I want to put it up on, as well as the second draft.

I'm actually sad it will soon be over, it just means that another set of characters are going to be happy, while I remain here...with no happy ending, just a bottomless hole that will probably never be filled (NO I'M NOT FAT! I'm talking about emotionally. I'll always have an empty space.)

Well that's it for now, because I just wanted to say I'm almost done...oh and I'm listening to a Doctor Who Spotify playlist...and the song I'm currently listening to is called Song For Ten and I don't know why but the singer kinda reminds me of David Bowie...if you listen to it, please tell me if you hear it too!

Anyway...Biiiiiiyyyyyyyyeeeeeeee!!!!!!

Boring Holidays And Frustrated Packing

Well, you can probably tell this will be a rant, as well as an update. Basically, I packed for Malaga today, we're going to leave on Friday (but my parents are quite paranoid about the packing so they pack pretty much a week before we leave), and because they don't quite trust me or our hotel/resort, I can't bring my laptop with me. So I won't be able to work on my story for around 6/7 days.

Yes another week before I can either finish the story or start on the second draft (editing it). I'm almost there, I'm on chapter 15 now, and the good stuff is just starting - oh yeah, please don't mind chapter 13 and 14, they're fillers, because we can't have all the good stuff going on pretty much every chapter, plus the time scales would be too short. Anyway, hopefully I'll be able to finish the story in the next three days...that is if I don't have anywhere to go.

Now onto the rant...I am so mad my parents won't let me take my laptop! I will be bored, because a) there is most likely going to be no wifi in the room, so all the apps that I usually go on will be abandoned for that week...yippee...and again I won't have my laptop to work from. Ok they offered the small notebook my mum usually works from, but that is deathly slow! I can't work on a laptop that every five seconds would probably freeze on me! I mean yeah that would be a better alternative, but I just don't see myself staring at the small screen, especially when I like the way the MacBook feels under my hands (no puns intended). I'm just saying I like looking at my laptop screen, when I work on my book, because it has been my "original" (I'll explain...think of music, and how people do covers of different songs, like...I don't know, Starships by Nicki Minaj, you know, the cast of Pitch Perfect sang it with Mike Tompkins and people would say I like Nicki's version or I like Pitch Perfect's version...yeah well "original" means the original version of that song...it's like that with me and my laptop) I can't stand looking at my work on a different screen, even if it will help me finish my story faster. It's probably an OCD thing for me...yeah I have mild OCD when it comes to certain projects and things.

Anyway, I think this episode of anger was due to me PMS-ing, I'm close (sorry boys but girl talk...) and because it's coinciding with this trip, I know I will be hella bored, because I can't swim, and I know if I try, it would just spell disaster. So I will be stuck inside the hotel room trying to think of ways to entertain myself, which probably would include me listening to old soundtrack music while I think of a new story line for the next story in the series, which again will probably take me ages to finish. So my brain will be occupied with two stories by the time I return from holiday, on the 17th.

Oh yes, and the reason for the pretty much 4 day trip is because I have re-enrolment on the 18th and I can't miss that! Otherwise I'd be taken off the course! I can't have that! So in conclusion (for the first half of this post) I won't be working on my story because of my stubborn, paranoid parents, I won't be able to bring my laptop to Malaga, I'll be having a horrible time, because I won't be able to swim, and I will be burdened with two stories in my head for the rest of the summer...oh and as soon as uni starts, I'll have university work bothering me too. So in all my mind will be ready to explode by Christmas.

Ok so I'm overreacting, but come on in all fairness, I want to finish this first story as soon as I can, so that you guys won't get bored with just my ramblings, and TBH I really want to get this story out there because I want to. It's been eating at me ever since I failed to finish the first attempt to finish. It will kill me to give up on this story, since the plot line has me excited, and the character development is way deeper than the feeble attempt the first time.

Sorry, again for this...Anyway, back to the update part of this post. As I've said I'm on chapter 15. Basically the first act (again I see this as a play or film or whatever...) is what got me excited, but I didn't want it to stop there, I wanted it to be bigger and better, so I've developed the characters a lot more, and now I'm at a heavy plot development and when I am finally done with the first draft, I think it will take me a while to readjust the proportions of it and whatnots. Again I will thank my reviewers for it, when I give it to them. It would be so much easier after they give me their feedback. So again it will be a while before you get to see the final version of this story. After that I'll work on the second one, which I already have planned out in my head. I just hope that by the time I write it up, it would flow like it did for this first one.

So in short I'm going to be depressed next week because I have nothing to do, not even enjoy the sun and swim...It's DEPRESSING!!!!!! Anyway...

I'm out of things to say, so again do whatever you want with this post (except copy it). Bye...

Act One Is Complete

Exactly as it says in the title, and yes, I reference my story as a play. It's a novel, don't forget, but I like looking at it in different ways. I thought of it in parts, now I think of it in acts, and I have to say, it makes things a lot easier for me.

I know I've only posted an update yesterday...or was it the day before...wait, no yesterday, but I assure you this update is because I have finished act one of my play (don't judge!!!). Yes I've finished chapter 10 and it couldn't have come sooner! I loved writing the first act! It was such a roller coaster ride, and I ended it with a great feeling. I was so overcome with emotion, I actually had to stop writing halfway through a sentence. The last part of chapter ten will probably cause many of you to hate me! I know I hate me too, because I wrote it! I was so excited and emotional when I wrote it I couldn't even describe what I felt! I couldn't even breathe!

Wow, I'm getting excited just thinking about it...So, carrying on with this post...I am now beginning act two or chapter 11 and things are really getting intense. Don't worry, you'll be able to see it soon, that is if my reviewers can get me my reviews on time.

Anyway, this story is so much different than what I'd ever expected. It's evolved as I write, and every time I look over what I've just written, I can't even imagine it's me that's writing. It's like, nothing I've ever felt. Ok, so that's basically what I keep saying, let me explain. When I write this story, it's like...it's not me that's writing, I mean I am writing it, but it's not my words. Basically, it's like when you're reading a book for the first time, you don't know what's going to happen, and you are so engrossed you have to read it. That's like me as I write. It's like I'm reading what someone else is saying to me, and I'm just the scribe, I see the words in my head and when it comes out on the computer, I'm dazzled! I can't believe what I'd just written, and I have to look over it just to make sure it's really there! It's like I'm reading that new book, as I'm writing. It's amazing! The last novel I wrote it was nothing like it, I had to consciously write the story, and it did not work at all, but this, this is on a whole new level. It's beyond my own imagination. It's not even me!

I don't know if any writer or any artist can say the same, but that's exactly how I feel. When I planned this story, I thought it would just be a normal romance, where the girl and guy admit they love each other, but the more I write, the deeper it all gets. It literally evolves as I write! I mean, after I finish a chapter I always have an idea of what I want to write next, and if it's at night, I always think about what I want to write just before I go to bed. Then when I wake up, and I turn on my laptop, the story is not the one I envisioned the night before, it is something completely different. It's the same when it comes to the next part of a chapter. Once I'm done with one perspective, another comes along!

It's like I'm not the one dictating this book, and I'm just along for the ride, just watching and waiting for the next thing to happen. It's so magical, I can't even begin to describe my excitement. I really can't wait for it to be finished, so that all of you can see what I mean. It's really something else, and yes it may have elements of stories that you've probably seen, but it's something really new in my perspective, and I really can't imagine anything else. Of course when I do finally look over it, and I put it up here, I will give the credits where its due, not just to my readers, but to the inspiration that created it. So here's me signing out for now, I'll see you all soon. ^^

Welcome New Reviewers

Well hello there. No that title is not for you, but for the people I have added to the review roster. They have been patiently waiting for the new story. Only because I've asked them to review my work, just so I can have an idea of what I need to edit. They'll be getting what is essentially the first act of the grand scheme - I'm only giving them chapters 1 - 10. Yes, I'm at chapter 10, and it's only been a week! My last story took me nearly a month! I think it's because I'm more enthusiastic about this one. It's really exciting, and you can definitely feel the characters develop.

Ok so about the story. I haven't made any summary of it, but I will, as soon as the first full draft is done, but basically it's a love story, but also an adventure story. That's all I'm going to say. Anyway, So far, we've had many emotional outbursts, mainly from the girl, from rage to sadness and to passion. So yeah we'll be on a very emotional ride with this one.

If I haven't said before, I might make a series out of it, if I can be bothered, because I've made mention to Seven elements, and so far, one of them has been fully integrated in the story, the other six I think will have their own, who knows, and it will span across different worlds. For instance this first one is basically based on the fey, so it's a world full of magic and fairies and whatnots, I might make a story based on a steampunk theme, or a Victorian theme, or even delve into sci-fi, who knows. We'll just have to wait and see.

The truth is, this story or series is taken from many inspiration, this first one is listed in the previous post, so Jim Henson's Labyrinth and whatnots are this novel's inspiration, I may be inspired by other such movies or books to make the others, like, I don't know, Howl's Moving Castle, or The Pirates of the Caribbean series, or something else entirely. However I will let you know what the inspiration for these different stories are, when the time comes. For now, you'll have to wait and see.

So as always, (because I don't already tell you enough) do with this post what you will (except copy it) and I shall see you all again soon. Bye!!!! ^^

Progress Report! Sir!

Ok so I think it's time I posted something up, otherwise you lots get bored. Not that anyone reads it, but who cares! I've decided not to care, not even the amount of views I've got so far!

Well, I guess you'll all be happy to know I've made it to Chapter 8 in...what...5 days. That's something. I've managed to tease you in these few chapters, and the big heavy stuff will be in the later chapters, so watch out for that. I've got a few more people on the review panel, so I can edit a lot more easily, most of them aren't writers...well...writers in the sense of actual fiction...but yeah, anyway, they'll be helping me with the stuff, so once it's out in the open, I'll be crediting them (maybe not by name if they don't want it, but crediting them nonetheless).

Next, I've been working at this non-stop, so maybe by the end of this year, I'll probably have it up...if university work and other stuff don't interfere. I highly doubt it, but there you go. Ok so breakdown of inspiration and stuff...Mainly it's the music I'm listening to...The chord progressions and the overall theme of the music is just the epicentre of it all.

First of all I'm listening to the amazing violin skills of Lindsey Stirling. You can click on her YouTube channel here (oh and I am not endorsing, this is just for credit purposes): Lindsey Stirling - her stuff is amazing! I especially love her song Shatter Me (yes it's clickable), feat. Lzzy Hale from Halestorm (another clickable). Anyway, most of her songs are my inspiration, along with music from Audiomachine, which oddly enough I used in my A2 coursework (I used the song called The New Earth) - you can Spotify them, I love their music, it's all epic and stuff, helps me think of really cool battle scenes or ending scenes! Anyway, I also use Labyrinth (The link is to their IMDB page not the film itself) - OF COURSE! My inspiration and possibly obsession...and Disney's and the original story of Beauty and the Beast (again IMDB). Not only that, some things are from the fan-fictions I love, the ones that I referred to before:

• Of Dreams and Broken Things by FangamerBowiextreme
• What's Past is Prologue by cu-kid
• The End of Days by dansemacabre

The links this time are to the fan-fiction themselves...reader discretion is advised - THEY ARE MATURE!!!! Just as a heads up. Anyway, they are on fanfiction.net so they don't have a title page, and start on the first chapter/prologue but I don't think that would be a bother.

So that's the gist of it. But details are...well, when you read the prologue, listen to Lindsey Stirling's Take Flight, that particular "chapter" was based on the song. I just imagined the first few lines, and things took off from there...the rest...I dunno, sorta happened...ok so I based it a little on the story I had before (which I am never going back to - I've literally deleted from every data store I have, so literally there is no going back) but this time, things are a little bit more developed. So yes I hope you like it...if and when it does decide to turn up on the internet.

After that I guess the rest would probably speak for itself. So wish me luck...or not, since no one actually comments on these things...

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Anyway...

Update Time...

Hey...yeah, the deadline has kind of gone out of the window, so we'll probably wait a lot longer before the story becomes live, so I'm really sorry. I'm trying my best to gain enough inspiration to continue.

Anyway, a lot has happened this summer, after Cancun. I went out with the cousins (we are surprisingly close, so don't judge), I went out to lunch with an old friend, I went shopping with my sister and we went fishing last Sunday. Ok so not so much has happened, but I have taken up hand craft projects. Oh and I had managed to finish the cat cross stitch I had been working on for the past three years. Yes I could have finished it in one year, but I had to put it off because of my A Levels and  there were points where I couldn't be bothered to continue it. Now I have taken up a crochet project, I'm making an afghan/blanket, and I have two more cross stitch projects lined up. Not to mention I'm starting my second year at university this September, and my family has booked a trip to malaga in the next few weeks. So the novel has had to step back in terms of priority. Who knows I may finish it next year.

So what has happened so far? Well when I went out with my cousins, it was really for a birthday. Originally it was going to be themed, but because of limited resources and poor planning we ended up going to a bar and just drinking and having fun. It was great. I managed to stay somewhat sober, more so than pretty much everyone else, and I didn't fall asleep this time...don't ask. Although I did feel sleepy throughout the night, but I guess it's only because it was late, I'm not used to staying up past midnight. There were a few instances where I had to help someone in the group, for example, my "cousin" was quite sick she was sent out of the bar and I tried to get attention away from her. The next person was my sister, and well I handled that a lot better. Oh and the worst one was my cousin, his drinking lead him to the stage where he was aggressive and angry, and that scared me a lot, because he tried to confront two big guys who were walking to the station behind us, fortunately for us, they understood that he was drunk and tried to calm him down.

The next interesting thing I did was go fishing with my family. That was fun, more fun than the bar actually. I love fishing and I caught two big ones nearly instantly, of course that was all I caught because that was my turn, I had to hand over the rod to my cousins so they could have a go. Then we had a picnic, which well kind of frustrated me, since my dad got a charcoal "instant" grill. The instructions were fairly simple, but the thing was it didn't light very well, it took us hours until we got it starting, but we did eventually get it started, and took a few good photos while we were at it, and I must say the fish I caught was excellent, that it was worth the wait. It was good to see my grandmother and my two baby cousins (even though they're already 7 and 11 I still think them babies) out in the fresh air. I was a bit jealous of the younger one though, he managed to catch five fishes...No one should be that good, especially on their first go!

The other events were just ordinary compared to what I'd described above, I bought some clothes, but mostly I bought fruits for my smoothies, which I haven't had the chance to make, and well, I don't think I'll be making any smoothies any time soon, since I keep forgetting to. So I may just put the smoothie making off for a while, until I get my health routine back on track.

Anyway, that's the story for now, let's be done with that, and I'll see you soon. ^^

Real Procrastination...

Hey, ok so I know it's been a while, but the truth is, I've had to abandon the story for a bit, because I just wasn't feeling up to continue writing about a love that I've never truly experienced. So basically I was kinda hibernating and recovering from my own self-pitying, not to mention things got out of hand the past few weeks...we had a birthday party, a theme park outing, shopping days, lunch days, you name it.

Ok, so far I'm still on chapter 10, and I highly doubt now that I'll finish this story before September, but that's ok, I'm putting the new deadline for Halloween, maybe I'll get it done by then. I've only a few more chapters to go. So you'll be seeing the full thing soon. I'm sorry if things are going slowly now, I've just had to go on that much needed break, or else I'd be crying my eyes out every day because I've been craving for that passion, that completeness from having someone love you like that.

Not to mention I've been getting myself addicted to a few games that really may not be healthy, but hey, who cares? No one actually sees me play those games, except my family. Oh and I've also been busy cleaning up the house, because I've got that much free time on my hands.

Anyway, that's it for now, again sorry it's short I really don't have much to say, because if I do start going on a rampage, things won't be pretty, I can promise you that. So I'll see you all soon (I hope).

Hello Again!

Finally I'm back, I've had to take a two week hiatus, it seems, because a lot of things happened. The first week we were still adjusting to London time (since we were still a little jet lagged), and the second my sister and I visited our cousins (and they visited us).

So in short it's been "busy" not to mention my muse has run away for those two weeks, which wasn't quite that big of a deal, because I think she really needed that holiday. She's come back (finally) and is ready and rearing to go. So you probably won't hear from me, for a little while, because she's pushing me to continue the story.

At the moment, all I can say is that chapter 8 will soon be done and perhaps by the end of the week I'll be done with chapter 10 or so, we'll see, if I'm not distracted, maybe it could happen.

Sorry for the short update, I can't really say anymore on the subject, because I may just be giving everything away. So be good for now. ^^

Update Time - Another Hiatus

Hello everybody! As you can tell from the title, I will be on another hiatus. It seems my muse has left me floundering in the deep, with no raft, and the shore is like three hours away, so I'm going to have to take some more time off to finally swim back to shore. Yes I'm back from holiday, not that you lot care. I've had some great R&R but now it's time to get back to the real world, and well...let's just say, I'm still a bit jet lagged (it's harder to adjust to the time difference when you travel east).

So what happened on holiday? Well I've told you everything important in the last few posts of this blog, but I'll just recall it in this one. On Sunday, as we were still adjusting to the new environment, we went to church, and I could barely understand the mass (it was in Spanish, and no amount of Spanish lessons could have helped). Monday was a day of R&R, we went to the beach, we swam in the pool and bought a few food stuff from Walmart (not that I'm advertising). Tuesday we started to do some real stuff, we went parasailing, and saw the entire coast line of the "Zona Hoteles" of Cancun. It was marvellous (not to mention we were above the sea, so we could see sting rays, turtles and all sorts of stuff that happens at sea.

Wednesday was the best...and possibly the worst. We swam with dolphins, as you know. It was such an epic experience, that I still can't believe I did it, and when I say the worst, it is because, I think I got infected by the pool water the dolphins were in, because I got a rash and noticed it a few hours later, luckily it's not too bad, and with time it will go away, but it was quite annoying. The next day, we went to Xichen Itza, and it was so awesome!! I loved the Mayan culture, and although the hype of 2012 is gone, it was still amazing to learn about the Maya's traditions, like their numerical system and their use of the stars to calculate rain and other stuff. It was eye opening.

Friday was another day of R&R because the next day, Saturday, was the day we set off. Leading me on to the next point. It was such a long day, that day. Our flight left at 7pm (approx.) and my mum was on standby, so we had to wait around six hours to get her booked on the flight. So I was pretty much wasting the battery of my iPad the entire time. When we finally did get on the plane, I didn't sleep like everyone else did, I watched movies the entire flight (not to mention I watched The Hunger Games: Catching Fire for the second time, on the plane). So I pretty much messed up my entire body clock, and when we arrived at Gatwick, I was flagging the entire time. I'm not even sorry for sleeping on the Virgin Crew coach, on our way to Heathrow, to get home. In fact, I didn't sleep until Sunday night, so I pretty much stayed up approximately for 24 hours.

Now, it's just getting used to British time, because I am still fully sleeping at around 2am, and waking up at 11am. Of course today is different. Today I was woken up at 9:30am, because we are getting our windows replaced. FINALLY!!!! Our double glazed windows are old, and so now our dad has finally got them to be changed. So I had to get up early to ease his mind, these are strange men, and we don't know what they're capable of, so my sister and I are lookouts for the day.

That's it for now. I'll get back to all of you when I do finally get back on track with the story. So over and out. ^^

Welcome to Cancun

Hello everyone, hola y bienvenido a Canún! I've barely even written a few paragraphs of chapter 8 and  I don't think I'll get past chapter 9 by the end of the week. For now let's just say it's going to be another hiatus. I will be going back to it. It's just I'm at a writer's block, and my muse has left. For now there's nothing I can do.

Please be patient and I will get back to it. As for those of you who are wondering. I'm having a good day so far. The weather's nice, and the hotel we're staying at is lovely. The people are friendly and I really am enjoying myself. So for now, again sorry, but please be patient