Well, my hiatus is over, and so I should be able to go back to my review blog and my story (because obviously I've already started playing League of Legends), but for some reason, I can't bring myself to do anything. Granted I've been logging onto my account for League of Legends, but that's about all I do. I don't play a single game unless a friend plays with me now...and as for my review blog, Doctor Who won't be coming back until Christmas, and well, I have one more assignment to hand in next week, before I can actually say I can return to my story, but truth be told, I'm dreading having to go back to it.
I'm not sad it's ending, in fact I'm happy that I can finish a story that is actually mine, but what I'm dreading is the happiness at the end. Of course every romance story has to have a happy ending, whether the boy gets the girl, or they have a sense of self-actualisation there is always a happy ending, and when I think that, I look back at my own life, and I find myself...not in the mood for happy endings.
I know I could always have a sad ending, but this story is mainly aimed for women, and you know how we like a good ending (never a cliffhanger - we always want the ending - God knows why, but we do). So I have to give it an ending, and most preferably a happy one, but every time I think about it, I just feel so depleted. Every time my mind goes to my story, shy away, because I haven't had my happy ending, and I don't think I ever will...
Lately I've been re-reading Labyrinth fan-fictions, and that feeling I get after a story is done, the king gets his queen, and everyone lives happily after, just makes me yearn for that happy ending. I long for that king to rescue me. I long for my own Goblin King, and yes, I know people will say philosophical things, but I don't care. You may think I'm longing for that "bad boy" type, but the truth is, the fact that in these fan-fictions, he still goes after her and she loves him back, is the one thing that I want; the one thing that I feel like I deserve.
I'm not saying I do, and I know it's impossible, but the fact that someone could love you, with all your flaws, is the one thing I truly desire. Many of you will probably say "if you want it go out and get it, love won't find you sitting at home and pining away," but that's just it! I have gone out, I have tried.
I've tried to flirt, I've tried to play the coy and shy one, but nothing works! I'm not extroverted, I'm not happy standing there with stranger and "chatting them up" it just makes me feel awkward and uncomfortable, and the instant I step out I wish I was home, curled up with my iPad or a good book.
It makes me despair that I am so introverted that I can't even see the light of hope anymore, and as I type this, the most quintessential quote I can think of, from the same movie that has inspired my longing for love, is, "It's not fair!" Yes, you've guessed it, Labyrinth. So long, I've looked at life, knowing it's not fair, but for once, I will say it. It's not fair.
It's not fair that I am sitting here, writing all this out. It's not fair that I have this demon. It's not fair that I keep painting myself as the victim, when really it's just me being dramatic. It's not fair that I always seem to cry about this time and again. It's not fair that everywhere I go I seem to be mocked by couples, by strangers who can speak out to people and by friends who seem to have friendships that could span the ages. It's not fair!
Right now I'm listening to Shatter Me (yes, I know it's been...like...a year...since I've last mentioned this song but screw it! I love it, and it speaks to me) and it makes me want to shatter that glass that surrounds me! If you've seen the music video, you can understand what I'm talking about. I want that someone to make me feel alive, I want to stop living in this half state, where I think I'm living, when really I'm just lost, and lonely and not even living.
I know many of you may feel the same way. I know there are people out there, who feel just like me. So I ask you, WHERE ARE YOU! If you do feel the same way I do, why can't I feel you're presence. You +1 my posts, but I never really know if you're simply +1-ing it because it's a new post, or if you actually agree with it. No one even comments, so I keep thinking that no one really reads this post. It's frustrating and every now and then I am so tempted to delete this blog, because what's the point! What's the point of having this blog, when I don't even know if anyone does read it.
You all probably think I'm pathetic, or insane. Perhaps I am, but that doesn't make anything better. As I said before, I am a rose, surrounded by thorns, because I can't break out. The darkness surround me and I feel like I'm going to suffocate because I don't even have the courage to find the light. I'm slowly dying from the poison that tips every thorn and I have no idea how to cure myself of it! I truly, sincerely, and deeply ask for help!
Showing posts with label Labyrinth. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Labyrinth. Show all posts
Friday, 21 November 2014
Saturday, 11 October 2014
LABYRINTH SEQUEL AND FANGIRLING
Hello once again, today is the day! League of Legends semifinals and Doctor Who!!! Whovians! You ready!? Summoners! You ready!? Let's get this party started! I'll start off with the Doctor Who review, since, it's going to start pretty much before the semifinals of League of Legends. So for now, let's talk about something else.
It's hella cold! Here in London, it's not that bad, but I am still cold...probably because I'm not doing much, but I'd rather be somewhere warm...oh well, this is the life I got...I gotta live with it. Anyway...Labyrinth...sequel...(Cue fangirl screams!!!!!!)
Last night I discovered the most exciting thing to ever happen in my obsessive life...The Henson Company is planning a Labyrinth SEQUEL!!!!!! I honestly can't wait for it...it's my dream come true! It's...gah! I can't even!!! Reading all the comments on the articles that profess this new development, I'm not quite sure I want this sequel anymore...You see you have to understand that Labyrinth came out in 1986, and it is 2014...many still want David Bowie's...uhem...you know...but looking at him now, I don't think he'll be right for the part...I hope they make the sequel classy, not something that pretty much does what every sequel does...SUCK! It's got to be good, my suggestion is, to have a completely different story, but let Sarah (i.e. Jennifer Connelly) and Jareth (David Bowie) cameo. If they're going to include the original cast, it's not going to be very good, Bowie isn't as...fit as he was before, and he was at his peak back then, Jenny (yes I'll call her what I want) is...well, no longer a teenager, so how are you going to use them for the cast. I'd prefer if it was a remake, but of course, people will be critiquing it a lot harsher than it really should be, so I won't say any more.
PEOPLE AT HENSON!!! PLEASE MAKE IT GOOD! I DON'T WANT TO HAVE TO SAY THIS AGAIN!!!!!
So, now, let's talk about something different...No not going to happen, Labyrinth all the way!!! I hope they use one of the fan fictions on Fanfiction.net, there are so many good ones. I'm not joking, I may actually use one to create a film...not using their character names, but the stories themselves. These are really good stories. Like I said, I'm basing my story The Great Seven: Earth on these fan fictions, you all know! I am going to be uploading it soon...I'm on chapter 21 by the way, and almost on my way to finishing it. But yes, I hope they get inspiration there, because the theory on Tumblr is really lacking, I mean, come one, goblins that are the younger siblings, that weren't fetched by "Sarah" before time ran out...that's not really a very good theory. The ones about Jareth being (like the Doctor) the last of his kind, and trying to hold onto the very fabric of existence is probably cooler than the recurring adventures in the Labyrinth.
If I were to do a sequel, it would be based on either Of Dreams and Broken Things, What's Past is Prologue, or The End of Days. I'll post up the links later, but I would use either one of these as the basis, not that stupid theory on Tumblr (Sorry, I know it's not that stupid, but the background behind these ones are so much cooler. I mean, the fairy world on the brink of oblivion and destruction is so much better than a lonely magician who's gone insane and thinks every dark haired girl, called Sarah, is his Sarah.
I hope they think to use more of the underground, or the fairy world, like include other mythical beings like (and I know it's cliche, but hey, if it can fit) unicorns, pegasus, dragons, giants, etc. It would make the adventure even more epic, and more real for us, since CGI is a big thing nowadays
Anyway, that's my rant for now, and I leave you with another Labyrinth based picture, I found on DeviantART (oh and the link to the artist is actually on the picture so click it if you want to see more like it - NOT PROMOTING!):
(NOT MINE! NOT MINE NOT MINE NOT MINE!!!!!!!!!!!) ^^
Thursday, 4 September 2014
Welcome New Reviewers
Well hello there. No that title is not for you, but for the people I have added to the review roster. They have been patiently waiting for the new story. Only because I've asked them to review my work, just so I can have an idea of what I need to edit. They'll be getting what is essentially the first act of the grand scheme - I'm only giving them chapters 1 - 10. Yes, I'm at chapter 10, and it's only been a week! My last story took me nearly a month! I think it's because I'm more enthusiastic about this one. It's really exciting, and you can definitely feel the characters develop.
Ok so about the story. I haven't made any summary of it, but I will, as soon as the first full draft is done, but basically it's a love story, but also an adventure story. That's all I'm going to say. Anyway, So far, we've had many emotional outbursts, mainly from the girl, from rage to sadness and to passion. So yeah we'll be on a very emotional ride with this one.
If I haven't said before, I might make a series out of it, if I can be bothered, because I've made mention to Seven elements, and so far, one of them has been fully integrated in the story, the other six I think will have their own, who knows, and it will span across different worlds. For instance this first one is basically based on the fey, so it's a world full of magic and fairies and whatnots, I might make a story based on a steampunk theme, or a Victorian theme, or even delve into sci-fi, who knows. We'll just have to wait and see.
The truth is, this story or series is taken from many inspiration, this first one is listed in the previous post, so Jim Henson's Labyrinth and whatnots are this novel's inspiration, I may be inspired by other such movies or books to make the others, like, I don't know, Howl's Moving Castle, or The Pirates of the Caribbean series, or something else entirely. However I will let you know what the inspiration for these different stories are, when the time comes. For now, you'll have to wait and see.
So as always, (because I don't already tell you enough) do with this post what you will (except copy it) and I shall see you all again soon. Bye!!!! ^^
Ok so about the story. I haven't made any summary of it, but I will, as soon as the first full draft is done, but basically it's a love story, but also an adventure story. That's all I'm going to say. Anyway, So far, we've had many emotional outbursts, mainly from the girl, from rage to sadness and to passion. So yeah we'll be on a very emotional ride with this one.
If I haven't said before, I might make a series out of it, if I can be bothered, because I've made mention to Seven elements, and so far, one of them has been fully integrated in the story, the other six I think will have their own, who knows, and it will span across different worlds. For instance this first one is basically based on the fey, so it's a world full of magic and fairies and whatnots, I might make a story based on a steampunk theme, or a Victorian theme, or even delve into sci-fi, who knows. We'll just have to wait and see.
The truth is, this story or series is taken from many inspiration, this first one is listed in the previous post, so Jim Henson's Labyrinth and whatnots are this novel's inspiration, I may be inspired by other such movies or books to make the others, like, I don't know, Howl's Moving Castle, or The Pirates of the Caribbean series, or something else entirely. However I will let you know what the inspiration for these different stories are, when the time comes. For now, you'll have to wait and see.
So as always, (because I don't already tell you enough) do with this post what you will (except copy it) and I shall see you all again soon. Bye!!!! ^^
Tuesday, 2 September 2014
Progress Report! Sir!
Ok so I think it's time I posted something up, otherwise you lots get bored. Not that anyone reads it, but who cares! I've decided not to care, not even the amount of views I've got so far!
Well, I guess you'll all be happy to know I've made it to Chapter 8 in...what...5 days. That's something. I've managed to tease you in these few chapters, and the big heavy stuff will be in the later chapters, so watch out for that. I've got a few more people on the review panel, so I can edit a lot more easily, most of them aren't writers...well...writers in the sense of actual fiction...but yeah, anyway, they'll be helping me with the stuff, so once it's out in the open, I'll be crediting them (maybe not by name if they don't want it, but crediting them nonetheless).
Next, I've been working at this non-stop, so maybe by the end of this year, I'll probably have it up...if university work and other stuff don't interfere. I highly doubt it, but there you go. Ok so breakdown of inspiration and stuff...Mainly it's the music I'm listening to...The chord progressions and the overall theme of the music is just the epicentre of it all.
First of all I'm listening to the amazing violin skills of Lindsey Stirling. You can click on her YouTube channel here (oh and I am not endorsing, this is just for credit purposes): Lindsey Stirling - her stuff is amazing! I especially love her song Shatter Me (yes it's clickable), feat. Lzzy Hale from Halestorm (another clickable). Anyway, most of her songs are my inspiration, along with music from Audiomachine, which oddly enough I used in my A2 coursework (I used the song called The New Earth) - you can Spotify them, I love their music, it's all epic and stuff, helps me think of really cool battle scenes or ending scenes! Anyway, I also use Labyrinth (The link is to their IMDB page not the film itself) - OF COURSE! My inspiration and possibly obsession...and Disney's and the original story of Beauty and the Beast (again IMDB). Not only that, some things are from the fan-fictions I love, the ones that I referred to before:
So that's the gist of it. But details are...well, when you read the prologue, listen to Lindsey Stirling's Take Flight, that particular "chapter" was based on the song. I just imagined the first few lines, and things took off from there...the rest...I dunno, sorta happened...ok so I based it a little on the story I had before (which I am never going back to - I've literally deleted from every data store I have, so literally there is no going back) but this time, things are a little bit more developed. So yes I hope you like it...if and when it does decide to turn up on the internet.
After that I guess the rest would probably speak for itself. So wish me luck...or not, since no one actually comments on these things...
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Anyway...
Well, I guess you'll all be happy to know I've made it to Chapter 8 in...what...5 days. That's something. I've managed to tease you in these few chapters, and the big heavy stuff will be in the later chapters, so watch out for that. I've got a few more people on the review panel, so I can edit a lot more easily, most of them aren't writers...well...writers in the sense of actual fiction...but yeah, anyway, they'll be helping me with the stuff, so once it's out in the open, I'll be crediting them (maybe not by name if they don't want it, but crediting them nonetheless).
Next, I've been working at this non-stop, so maybe by the end of this year, I'll probably have it up...if university work and other stuff don't interfere. I highly doubt it, but there you go. Ok so breakdown of inspiration and stuff...Mainly it's the music I'm listening to...The chord progressions and the overall theme of the music is just the epicentre of it all.
First of all I'm listening to the amazing violin skills of Lindsey Stirling. You can click on her YouTube channel here (oh and I am not endorsing, this is just for credit purposes): Lindsey Stirling - her stuff is amazing! I especially love her song Shatter Me (yes it's clickable), feat. Lzzy Hale from Halestorm (another clickable). Anyway, most of her songs are my inspiration, along with music from Audiomachine, which oddly enough I used in my A2 coursework (I used the song called The New Earth) - you can Spotify them, I love their music, it's all epic and stuff, helps me think of really cool battle scenes or ending scenes! Anyway, I also use Labyrinth (The link is to their IMDB page not the film itself) - OF COURSE! My inspiration and possibly obsession...and Disney's and the original story of Beauty and the Beast (again IMDB). Not only that, some things are from the fan-fictions I love, the ones that I referred to before:
- Of Dreams and Broken Things by FangamerBowiextreme
- What's Past is Prologue by cu-kid
- The End of Days by dansemacabre
So that's the gist of it. But details are...well, when you read the prologue, listen to Lindsey Stirling's Take Flight, that particular "chapter" was based on the song. I just imagined the first few lines, and things took off from there...the rest...I dunno, sorta happened...ok so I based it a little on the story I had before (which I am never going back to - I've literally deleted from every data store I have, so literally there is no going back) but this time, things are a little bit more developed. So yes I hope you like it...if and when it does decide to turn up on the internet.
After that I guess the rest would probably speak for itself. So wish me luck...or not, since no one actually comments on these things...
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Anyway...
Wednesday, 4 June 2014
Update Time - A Hiatus
Ok I've been thinking, and I think 30 chapters is a bit too much, especially when each chapter is around 15 pages long. So I've lowered it to 20-25 chapters, to make it easier. As for the title of this post, well that's coming up.
First let me just say, I've pretty much been working on this story non-stop and it's been driving me insane. I literally want to strangle it, stab it several times and hang it. That's how bad I've fallen. So I'm going to have to take a hiatus for the rest of the week...that's not to say I'm going to stop completely, because it's just going to mess it all up, but I will be writing less than I usually do, since I'm already on chapter 14. Yes! I'm on Chapter 14! I'm so proud of myself.
So yes, I'll work on it less, because I might just end up crying every night because this story is getting under my skin. I will get back on track next week, because I would like to post up the story soon, hopefully before the peak of summer, otherwise, before uni starts up again.
Ok so what brought this on? Well I've been really down and out when it comes to relationships and I needed a break, because this story is basically based on a relationship. I had a girl's day out today, with my cousin, so I thank her for helping me distract myself. We had a really good, long talk and I've tried to come to terms with my depression, but it still lingers, and I may have a good cry tonight, but that's ok. We did a little shopping, and I actually cannot believe this but the HMV store in the high street we went to, had something I did not expect. I almost cried because it was something that I completely love!!!
Perhaps I can explain it with this:
Plot: When an innocent wish accidentally comes true, Sarah has to traverse a dangerous and trying Labyrinth to get to the centre, inside the Castle Beyond The Goblin City. Stuck in fairytales and fantasy she has to learn the hard way that not everything is not as it seems, and starts to truly feels sorry for wishing her half brother away. Meanwhile the Goblin King, Jareth, is having a ball watching the young teenager fighting him at every turn, and making friends of his subjects.
Did you guess it?
Yes I found the DVD to LABYRINTH!
I was so overwhelmed that I still can't believe I have it! The instant I got home I watched it! That's how bad it was! I was so happy.
Anyway, as you all know I have an obsession with Labyrinth and this story is loosely based on it, so I'll be re-watching it constantly to feed my imagination and belief in fairytale. And as proof here are images, taken from my phone, the instant I had the chance. If you want to know why I love this film, read it in my review:
I'll end it there, so as always do with this post what you will, and God Bless! ^^
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